今年运势

看来今年要特别的小心咯
被算出来今年会有路杀
就是说，出门会遇到不好的事情
跌倒，车祸等等等等
救命啊~~
怕怕~~

还有以后不可以在一个人不开心心情不好的时候出去了
今年也说会有“不好”的事情
一个人出门会很“不好”
特别是晚上
哎哟哟~
妈妈说最好晚上不要出门
怎么可能？
出去玩都是晚上的
妈妈说遇到坏人就不好了
可怜的我 ~~

但是为了安全起见
看来今年要特别小心咯
各位要特别照顾我咯

Tough Day

幸福的瞬間

當秋天 再來的時候 妳要我 笑著去愛去擁有
就算是 再短暫的溫柔 能重逢 這仁慈已足夠
可知道 有些事有些人 停留在 發生的那天不肯走
看時光的殘酷 捨不得被遺忘 這命運我很滿足 有妳陪伴的幸福

※為妳打開 時間的鎖 讓愛自由 不被它束縛
是哭過 也掙扎過 心讓痛碾過
等那一天 落葉靜靜飄眼前 已不再傷悲
永恆終於相信了幸福的瞬間
為妳打開 時間的鎖 讓愛自由 不被它束縛
每一秒 都不後悔 我陪妳體會
過去未來輕輕重疊 請原諒甜甜的眼淚
感謝今生與妳在 幸福的瞬間 依偎

People got touched cause of love
But there are people got hurt because of love
I been through both of them
Either I hurt people or been hurt
Whatever it is
Love is something amazing
Yet something horrible that can rip you into pieces

No matter what
I know cry won't cure the pain
No matter how much it hurts
We have to learn to cure it
Even there are nobody to tell

Giving things but never want any return
Just because we care
I will keep everything deeply in my heart
Nobody will know
Cause it is what it is meant to be
None of any living things should know

Gotta Get Thing Into My Head

Things got very stress lately

Assignment

Club duty

Also catching up what I had left behind

Honestly I REALLY want to be SUPER this time

No more last minutes study

But can I actually achieve it?

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Chapter 1 - Health

Lately kinda torturing actually

I feel sleepy most of the time

So

As usual I sleep most of the time

Wake up at 8am online / movie awhile then sleep back around 10am

Wake up around 12pm for lunch online awhile sleep back around 2pm

Wake up around 4pm/5pm online awhile

Then cook dinner plus dinner

Sleep back around 9pm/10pm

This is my life lately

Not really sure what's going on

But it really sleepy

Maybe is the stomach / medicine itself

I still have tons of them to finish

And I missed one medicine just now

Damn!

I keep on having "toilet rush" (if you know what I mean) these 2 days

Argh

I have to take another medicine to "cool down" myself

I think I ate too much fried things

But did I?

I remembered I didn't take sour / spicy / fried things for like almost 1 week

Argh

I think I still in the middle to fix my health

Seriously

Things doesn't go well lately

I wonder why

But I just have to cure things one by one

No more cough + flu

So thank god, no more asthma medicine

Still have a bit gastric

Get worst whenever I miss one meal

Argh

Of course, I still have bunch of medicine left to finish

Fever sometimes which I wonder why

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Chapter 2 - Homework + Clubs + Assignments

Anyhow

Things kinda mixed up together lately

Everything comes all in together

It almost make me have zero time especially when I start to watch drama

haizz

Sleeping time increase, assignment, club tasks increase, homework increase

Make me almost impossible to have extra time!!!

Things get worst when I am officially broke!

I never dare to imagine it

All my handphone are not allow to sms/call

Even my celcom reach the max limit

Dad's going to kill me SOON

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Chapter 3 - Complicated Relationship

Seriously, it is worst than everything above

At least I can finished all the tasks needed to do

Or slowly recovered from all the illness I had right now

But this?!

Damn, I really wonder how should it be right now

Honestly, I have totally no idea what to do

I really messed up this time

Kinda busy lately and all of sudden unable to contact people

I guess I drive him mad actually

But I had to admit he drive me mad as well

The whole week

Seriously, I think around 4 days we didn't contact each other

I can feel the frustration in him

And honestly, this doesn't help

I admit, I am a bit selfish

I don't like the way he did to care about me so I turn up to ignore him completely

I not quiet sure how did I did the whole few days

Maybe is the drama I think

But he nearly going to kill me

But I didn't even mind for that moment

I just want to ease things up

But I think he doesn't get the point

He always want to know MORE

Not that I don't like it

I just NEVER did that

and I didn't even DO that

I guess that's a really private joke for my housemate where she thinks I will be hanging myself up

Well, part of it is true

I don't like it

But the way I completely ignore him
I think he is going to hate me forever

From the way I did to him

After what he did

Honestly, part of me is happy

At least he get rid of me

At least he has the reason to hate me somehow

It's a good start actually

But I feel sorry to him in other way

He should be my friend

But I treat him in a very nasty way

But seriously

I don't like the way he did

And I don't think none of us going to change

So

I don't think where can we head to

It had been a very tough weeks

Illness + pressure and stuff

I can say I try to put everything aside to focus things slowly and settle it

I admit

I try to escape from him cause the main part

I don't like to explain things

Or worst

I don't even want a person to care about me so much

Cause I really have nothing to give him back

But he doesn't going to help anyway

Except I just try to get myself away from him awhile

Cause I don't think I can take it anymore

Chinese New Year is coming

Home pressure is coming

Travel stress is coming as well

Don't have to mention Final Exam

I really have to get things focus

I really have to

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Chapter 4 - Financially Broke

I am officially BROKE!!!

Damn!!

JPA didn't pay the fees

I have to pay part of it

and the flight tickets are damn expensive

Not to mention the expenses during my birthday

Plus my mum's birthday

Some more CNY's clothes expenses!!

Oh MY~

I really need some cai shen yeh!!!

Help~~

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Chapter 5 - Things got better Today

I received my last birthday present today

From Siok Ching

Guess what?!

It's a Tamakuci!!

Honestly, I didn't see it coming!!

I kinda surprise

Cause when she said Malaysia is out of stock and she got ordered from oversea

I have not even a clue!

And yet!

Thanks!!

I guess something good finally happen after this rough days

I just wish things will get better

No matter in studies, or financial or relationship or health

Let the new year starts with a tough day but ends with a happy day!

Just because we don't talk doesn't mean I don't think about you.
I'm just trying to distance myself because I know I can't have you.

- Wiz Kahlifa

sometimes you drive me nuts

Seriously, sometimes I admit I neglected you
But really
You driving me nuts
There is a sudden that I willing to just cut off everything

You know what??
I am mad
You really driving me crazy

火！

他妈的王八蛋大白疵死白木！！！

Hand Injured

Mayday! Mayday!
T.T

First Job

Well, I think I just get my first job
Not really sure whether can I manage it
But hopefully I can

Conflict emotion now.. ^^

Boring

Just realize that this tutorial is very boring
People trying to give answer but I wonder can they give such an answer
Well, I know that girl
She is just........
I was wondering why does she thinking in her brain
Even her english communication is really...
It makes the class longer than it should be
Well, I am not lookimg down on her but it is really irritating
Damn!!!

Tired now...
Feel like sleeping now

Arena

Well, got up with 2nd time in Arena
Thanks to Justin

At first we didn't actually want to go
But he seems to see me in Facebook and happen to ask and want me to go
FIne
Get dressed in 10 minutes
But he reached in 5 minutes
Damn!
Just got a shirt and wear and go
Damn!

But I got She Rene with me
Thank god she is there
Else I am going to be dead

Everything seems to be boring at first cause Pipo brought an IS friend
Have some kind of communication error
But he is cute and a good dancer

We got beer and chit chat and dance for awhile
Then we knew is She Rene first time in Arena
Damn!
She become a target
Thank God

Due to this reason
They order a "wine fountain"
Wow! It's really pretty
But I didn't drink it
It was actually a wine/beer or whatever alcohol
Then they light it up
Then pour from a tall bottle
And everything gone into blue
Really nice
Then flow into a cup and everybody get a straw and drink
Never tasted it
But doesn't feel like tasty anyway

Then things started to heat up
And so here's came the story

An Indian and A malay
>.<"
Seriously
Never thought this will be happening to me

Notice an Indian guy always looking and smiling and me
Of course
Technique 1: Ignore

Then when I was dancing he was trying to "communicate" with me from his place
Technique 2: Smile and turn away

Then when I drank up the whole cup and beer
He claps and thumbs up for me
Well
Technique 3: Node and turn

Then when I walked up he called me
Well
This not hard to handle
Technique 4: Pretend nothing happen
And he got dissapointed
Well, who cares??

Then I went to washroom
When I went back
He gave us 2 bottles of beer
Well, I asked Jack why he did that
The answer is "He trying to "bribe" them so that they can come near to us"
Well, Who cares
But he did try to communicate with me
But me was surrounded by Jack and She Rene was surrounded by Justin
So both of us was protected
Until ........

When I go up to dance with She Rene
For awhile
He come nears me and I was actually ignoring him
Then after awhile I get bored and went down to find Jack
When I turns back
Seriously, I saw that guy standing behind from where I stood just now
Really, I was thinking
If I were there, is he going to dance with me?!
Thank god my six-sense are good
Making feel like it's time to go back where I am protected

Then these guys started to come near us and dance and bringing beers
It's irritating
And Jack and Justin were ignoring them
Seriously
They are REALLY ignoring them and surrounded 3 of us into a circle
We were actually castled by 3 of our guys friends - Protected
Things got worst when Justin got moles!
wahahahahahahaha

He never stop nearing us
And what Jack said is he was trying to talk with us and get our phone number
But seriously I didn't care
I just happen to be there and I don't want anybody to near me
That's all

Well, Guess it's 3am when we left
Justin is horrible unhappy
Really
And I am horrible tired
Reached home at 3.30am

Still wondering a question
"Did I look like I been to clubbing often?"
Well, according to my friend, she thought I always been there based on my clothes and dance
But Honestly
Seriously honestly
I just got that shirt in hurry and didn't even make up
So I didn't actually thinking what should I wear
So I guess I am not
Dance?????
hahaha..
Seriously, I was just having fun and all those crazy moves
I just happen to
So there is nothing to do with anything

But I really like being out with She Rene
She makes me relax
Than my own sister who trying to show off the world that she is attractive
Me and She Rene is like nature
We just match perfectly

Now, I will just need a bath and sleep
Good night world
Have a nice day !

Tired

Sometime I guess you can't push people too hard
No matter how hard you try
If the person is not that outgoing you can't push her too hard

Well, sometime I am really tired going out
Especially with people
Seriously
Think about so many entertainment
Don't you think it's abit tiring?
I don't know why
Everything seems to be wrong
When I want to study everything will be outing outing outing
When I want to go out everything turns out to be busy busy and you can't accompany me to
Really
I am tired

I under low-budget and I just want to hang out for a walk
Not like this
And yet I got at least 2 to 3 outings on hand
Don't you feel tireD?
Well, I am
Maybe I am not that out going person as you think

5/11/2011 (Saturday)

Good evening!
Well, it's 3 minutes to 10pm right now
Finally got everything settle
Washed clothes and washroom, got bath, and finish hanging around outside
Feeling fresh yet tired by now

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Last night sleep very late
I think it's almost 1am something while waiting
Until around 8am something I wake up
Very tired but still can wake up somehow ^^

After having lunch I still haven't decide whether to go out or not
But at the end I still get changed and went out
haha ^^

Firstly, here's the list to-buy item Before going there
1. handphone
2. ear-rings
3. handgrip (kinda accessories)
But end up the handphone no longer in production
Very SAD!!! T.T
Well, I did went to Padini and saw the ear-rings but I still didn't buy it cause I still don't really have the budget
And I saw the necklace
Damn! It is really attracting! Still didn't buy
But deeply in heart I know I will never get it after that cause it's going to be finished when I can really buy it
Well, there always another nice one aren't they ?

Then, went to eat Durian Ice Kacang!
Well, I must be crazy
First time in my life eating ice when I am cough and cold
I think I will be dying tonight coughing
But just don't care about it

Walking around MP + DP looking for some bear bear and cute things
But I end up buying nothing there
That's a good thing
Then we end up at MacDonald playing games
Finally! After so many times we finally played over 100 rounds!!!!

Then I saw something
A jacket
Lovely!! Very nice indeed and I love it so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But due to free size and it fit just nice which a jacket shouldn't be just fit
So I didn't buy it
Of course another reason is -- no money
T.T
Well, I really love that jacket !!! T.T

Then I asked for Lamee as dinner
Well, I forget that it's not nice and I ordered it
So it was a bit disappointing but I still can get over it ^^

Then we heading to Jongker Road
Really crowded
Actually by then my leg is killing me cause I wearing the high heels
The main reasons I went there is to buy ear-rings
And I got it
But I nearly got my ears cut cause of the stupid ear-rings
Tomorrow have to go and have a change
At the end of the walk I nearly break my leg
So now my leg is resting just like a queen
Enjoying resting ^^

But But...
Guess what
I go and see the bag and saw one bag REALLY NICE!!!
RM45! Didn't buy..
Well, it was actually same level of prettiness just like the what I saw in KL
But I still won't buy a bag for RM45
Damn expensive man!
Then a hair clip RM12 each
OMG~!
So I hold my breath and walk away
Sob.. Sob.. Sob...

Today I left without buying something I like
I should be happy but I still missed it especially the bag and jacket
haiz..
Dear goods,
1. Bag
2. Jacket
3. Hair clip
4. Necklace
Hopefully to see you soon If can

That's my day
Tiring yet fun ^^

Privacy

Well, you were wondering why am I so mad / unhappy for the whole afternoon
Privacy

I knew what you were doing all these time
But sometimes when I didn't say it out doesn't mean I don't know or I don't care
It just I know why you are doing this doesn't mean I will like it or agree with it

I told you I need time
Things not as easy as you think
You want me to settle things
I have my ways
Do you know how much effort I put on it?
Thinking of hurting BOTH at once?
Not to mention my effort of "eliminating" the conflict inside

Look, I'm not asking for forgiveness as I didn't really deserve one
But I seeing you trying hard
The more you tried, the tired you are
Why making yourself so suffer?
If that's solely because of me
I don't think I am worth
Cause I might not wholly for you
I think you realize this

I need time
I need some own privacy
I will share things that I want to
I never lie to you or hide anything to you
Did I?

So I just need time
I told you I need more time that you thought
I didn't expect for your patient but if We really want to work this out
You gotta give me sometime
To solve things out
To solve myself out
That's the main thing and that's kinda hard
And I am trying to

So will you maybe some respect?
Some privacy?

If I say that I can 100% let go within 1 month
Then I was lying cause I can't
So slowly we settle things can we?

Just a little help perhaps?

Consider A Bad Day

Well, Not only being sick
Not only eating with a rusted fork
It's also a busy day
10am start class until 1pm then booth and class until 6pm
6pm meeting till 9pm
Damn tired by now

Something happened during that meeting make me really unhappy
Well I don't mind when people expressing their opinion
But can't they just stop "fighting" our opinion as well
I thought you were having the same thought with me?!
Out of sudden you are not?!
Seriously ?!
Out of sudden I don't know how to continue the conversation I started
What do you expect me to do?
Agree with what you think?
Well you have your opinion
But I told you before and you didn't seems to have any other opinion and out of sudden you disagree with me?!

Sometime I just feel like I would prefer to just talk with my friends that's all
Just to bullshit things
That's all
I don't need all the "advices" and "suggestions"
Really

Not that you don't have the right to speak
But can you see the timing and the purpose I heading to???
I heading to SOMETHING!
I want to pass message INDIRECTLY and you almost to bull it of
Thank you so much

That's the reason why I always keep quiet when I with your friends
Cause I don't want to say something that I shouldn't say and make you awkward
That's why

Everything suppose to be wonderful TODAY
JPA finally bank in our allowances
I finally can lose abit from my debt
But we nearly end up fighting
Well we keep on fighting lately
What do you want actually?
A behaviour girl who listen everything you said?
To do everything you asked me to do?

Fine
Guess what?
Next time I wouldn't ask anything from you
If can, I will do it myself
I will rely on myself
So we are all even
We are all FAIR
Happy ?

Just don't know why today can end up so tiring and so ..............
ARGH
Whatever

Bad Luck?

Congratulation ! I will be dead soon

Well, not really joking about it
Guess what?
Just now go for lunch at the new shop at EP
The fork had rusted
OMG~!
Never thought I can be so Lucky

Looking Back

After looking back few posts of this blog
I think a lot

I think I hurt a lot of people
At least 3 peoples when I reached MMU
All love me very much that time

Out of sudden make me think of HIM
How is he right now?
Well I know that time we are not end up very good
We keep quarrelling all the time
I also say something bad to him as well
Well, he did say something that I mad of
That's why
But I wish that we can still be friends
But it seems to be hard
Cause everything is still different
Still keeping his present
Don't know what to do with it
What did you do with it anyway?
I still remember you said it is very waste of space and not meaningful anymore to you
Cause of my impatient and desperate
I still remember that

Looking back everything
I don't know why things end up like that
Everything started perfectly but end up badly

I miss all my friends
I do
Sometimes I miss my old life
But I guess we can't turn back the clock aren't we?

I heard people said that they wish that they can start from beginning
I have the feeling right now
I want to start over
Being protected and loved by parents
Being friendly with friends
And so on

But I can't
cause I can't turn back the clock
T.T

Finally Got Sick

Damn!
Flu + Cough + Headache + Fever
It's not a really good combination
But can I do?

Really tired and sick
Haiz

Thunder

Lighting over lighting
White light over and over
Kinda scary

IN fact
IT IS SCARY!

I was sleeping in that moment
Then suddenly got blackout
The whole house got black and suddenly
"ging go long"!!!!
Damn!!!!
I was jumping up fast and shouting then tears coming out
While Tony laughing when he heard
Damn!

Then I went to bath
When I get changed at room
Blackout again
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know how fast I run out of the room???!!!
Damn it!!
Thunder gong gong
Please don't thundering again
You will give me heart attack soon

My heart pumping damn fast
Then the blackout again and again for like 4 times
Each followed by "ging go long"
Great!!!

I don't want to take any photograph
So I don't need white flash
T.T

By the way
The thunder make me feel like not going out
Cause it's kinda embarrassing to be afraid during gathering
Some more you have to be calm even you scare
Adrian ~~ Sorry ya.. ^^

And here's another problem
Dinner
No dinner
Great!
I am starving T.T

Thunder you make me feel bad and scare
Now you make me hungry
T.T

Chivas

Great~!
I am going to be dead