sometimes, boys are not as sensitive as girls.. well i can't blame them for that.. that is the nature of the guys and girls.. Girls are sensitive animal while guys are "sight" animal.. that is nature and there is nobody to blame of..
"i was foolish to pretend i was fully recovered from disappointment as such wounds leave a scar"
i known somebody who have this experience.. well.. actually there are quite a lot of them.. they got hurt and left deeply disappointed even they can't even notice by themselves.. they know they unhappy and disappointed but they not really know how much dis spare they are into and how much mistakes they had done..
you said once to me that:"Love is certain, love is kind. Love is yours and love is mine. But it isn't something that we find. It's something that we do"
Also, you had once told me this:"Don't let doubts lose the magic of love, because it's not everyday you meet someone who has the magic to let you fall in love!"
Because of these words make me own that decision.. because of these sentences make me have the courage to do.. well.. at least i accept what i want to have..
There is somewhere that we have to make choices between friends and our partner.. there always a conflict between them that we can't really make a different.. i always know what i want.. but sometime.. maybe just sometime i can't stand with what i want and let other lead me.. it wasn't my favorite part either.. getting people's leading but who else to blame? i myself can't make my own stand?! i blame no one.. i care about my friends.. i worry them.. some of them appreciate it but some of them doesn't.. i can't blame people who doesn't appreciate me.. i can't expect them anything because i wasn't really care about it either.. all i give i wasn't really expect it back.. i give something not because i want something for return.. it just something i want to.. but when people turn it into something else that they think that my concern is something insincere.. well.. i have to say i am certainly sad about it.. since you don't want to care so does i.. i done with it just like what you wish.. is that what you want? if that is what you want go for it..
choices i have made between a brother and a partner.. choices i have made between a friend and my partner.. it wasn't really a pleasure choice to do.. if you really notice.. i know what i want but i can't get what i want.. i am a selfish human being.. sorry for being so selfish.. i hate choices.. i want you to stay.. i don't want to go.. i don't want.. but what can i do? you choose friends over this.. what can i do? i just obey whatever you think you are.. i want everybody to be happy that's all.. maybe i should be happy with what i having here.. i should be happy with what you have done.. at least appreciate with what we have been through..
choices is the reason of our life and also the way we grow up..
life and choices..
"For as long as I live, there will always be, a place you belong here beside me. Heart and soul baby -- you only."
i want you to be happy that's all..
i want all of you to be happy..
that's what i ask for..
