PC Expo

Went to PC Expo just now
Plan to buy Antivirus but I can't find ANY
Jezzzzzzz
Then I want to find Ipad cover
Can't find anything I like
Zzzzzz

While waiting James
We went to the Furniture Expo
Wanted to buy a fan aircon but nobody support me to buy
*Sob*
Then all of us spotted a washing machine
Fully Automatic RM525
Cheap!
So we bought one to replace the spoiled on at home!
My purse!!!
SOB

MacDonald

My chicken burger!
WHY?!

PS: Super no mood now!

29/06/2012

Got JPA elaun!! Yay!!
But after I distribute everything
I think I have to tight my own stomach this month and next month
Cause there are 3 important people birthday
So, I have to slim down my purse
*purse burst blood*

Then today Academic Tea
I was nearly heart attack when I was asked to be representative for JPA scholars to give speech
Well, she wasn't want me to give but she can't find Shee Nee
So she asked me
Jezzz!! Thank God Siok Ching saw Shee Nee coming in
Else I will be DEAD
SUPER DUPER DEAD!!

But before that
I was been treated by Siok Ching a hot coffee
Well, I was chatting with people while somebody knocked her and she accidentally spill the hot coffee on me
I wasn't really pay attention on what happen at the back
The only thing I know is everyone is noisy and nervous about something
The next second I realize something flowing on my clothes
Then I feel the pain
The next thing you saw is a girl jumping all over saying "HOT HOT PAIN PAIN"
Zzzzzzz
Then I went to washroom and take my clothes off while Siok Ching helped me clean up all the mess
Both of us was laughing all the way
Cause of no reason
And I just went for bath just now
I clean the clothes and washed my hair TWICE
It was full of COFFEE smell!!
JEzzzzzz!!
What kind of coffee they served?!

Then I went to Jusco to buy presents and books
Due to the reason where I don't have the time we went to drive through MacDonald for dinner
I was enjoying the dinner
I was happy even though I am tired
UNTIL
Until SOMEONE ate my chicken burger
I just don't get it
WHY?!
Why can't you just ask me before you eat???!!
Then you said that it just one bite!
Did you just ever thought that it's MINE?
Do you know the concept of MINE?!
M
I
N
E
MINE!!!
I really don't get it!
So, I end up eat nothing for dinner besides few sips of Coke and some French fries while most of them finished by that SOMEBODY!!
I wonder, 2 sets of MacDonald
Why can't he be full?
Somemore finished most of the French Fries and Coke
Why my chicken burger???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE YOU CAUSE YOU ATE MY CHICKEN BURGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not a super day
But another busy day
Whatever it is
I am so sO SO SO tired now
Wish to sleep now

Totally Bad Mood

I am a Super Spoiled Girl

I do what I want
I do what I SUKA!
SO WHAT?

ARTHUR!!!!

haha!! Remind me of HIM!! haha!

有些人走了就是走了，再等也不会回来
有些人不爱了就是不爱了，再勉强也只是徒然
有些人很幸福，一眨眼，就一起过了一整个永远
有些人很幸运，手一牵，就一起走过了百年
有些人明明很努力了，却还是什么都改变不了
不是一辈子的人，不说一辈子的话，不勉强，能放下

有时

我不明白为什么要这样？
我和你之间
是我的错是没错
有时真的很想放开手把一切都放了
你我之间不再争吵不用忍耐
真的很想告诉你，既然那么辛苦不如咱们就放手吧~

It's Late

I planned to sleep early today
But never success
I so wish that I can sleep early every night

Designed flyers again
But never come out with a good idea

I had changed some of the items because it really didn't turn out to be good

Stomach not feeling well again
Gastric?
I don't know
I don't want to care actually

Injured my leg yesterday just to protect the ipad
Now it look swollen
It's kinda irritating when I was walking
Especially when I wearing high heels when I MC the AGM

Saw Arthur today
He seems angry from the way I didn't bother him
But the problem is WHO CARES?!?!

Time to sleep
Tomorrow need to go STAD and run stuff
Jezzzzz
Please wake up on time tomorrow!!!

Morning

It's late when I woke up this morning
Everything is fine
I finished the budget stuff
Then I need to go take my spectacles later
Can't wait it!!
Hopefully it is nice!

But then I realized that I am still mad with him the F***ing B*****
Kah Hoe told me that there are alot of people in the world
Yes, I know it since a very long time ago
Just, this particular person
Well, HONESTLY, I just wish that somebody can just help me slap him for me
A hard one
A huge big slap!
And Kick his ASS!

Whatever, I am not going to ruin my day because of some stupid IDIOT B****
So, what to do today since I skipped all the classes
Accounting Management Revision and Corporate Accounting Revision!!
I haven't really sit down and read
Hopefully tonight can sleep earlier and then tomorrow I can go to library and study

Ok~
Bath now and....
And what?
Of course!
LUNCH TIME!!
Yeah!
Bye~ ^_^

Alone with Craziness

Anyone out there?

Bad Girl

I am a bad girl
I curse
Especially somebody who is brainless

What you said What had  you done to me You just will pay back ONE DAY ONE DAY I will let you know 

I am so mad so please allow me to crazily post all these stuff here 
I can't resists this 
Really!
Cause this moron is just very irritating
In fact he is just really Fucking irritating
I wish I can really slap him on his face

Anger
Fire
All over me

I don't know how to cool them down
Somebody help?

I will Remember

12.50pm, Jun 25Don't tell me this lame excuse please. if don't have the time please resign. 

Resign your Fucking Ass Hole!
It's your funeral STUPID!

F*** OFF!!!

You know how much I wish to just yell this at you?!

F***ker and Loser!!! Don't ever try to appear in front of me!!
The more I see you the more disgusting I feel
The more I chat with you the more irritating I am
So just FUCK OFF
Be your loser
Create more rubbish just like you are good with
Keep them to yourself F***ker!

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41 Minutes Ago

41 Minutes Ago
Arthur Hew
teng ang

Teng Ang
?

Arthur Hew
tml workshop got coming?

Teng Ang
no gua
why?

You really think that I want to go? I so wish that I can leave you forever

Arthur Hew
ok need bring the cash come
for changes

Teng Ang
owh..

Really? Not my problem

Arthur Hew
siok ching got come?

Teng Ang
ic~
she?
she got interview
you have the money on your hand right?

Arthur Hew
okok

Teng Ang
use that money first

Arthur Hew
RM65

Teng Ang
Cause i scare if i didn't go jiu GG

Arthur Hew
ok so when will all the thing pass back?
i need small changes

Not my problem

Teng Ang
ok ok
i tried to pass to siew chyn
cz i think siok ching will meet her or sth
^^

Arthur Hew
okok
then u try fit yourself
take care urself. Dont overstress

I am totally not stress. The only reason I am stress is because of YOU!! Genius, I thought that since you feel that you are smart, can't you get this?! Did you know how much I want to slap you?! 

Teng Ang
ok
I am so fine with everything
not so stress lar
i kinda enjoy it actually
hahahaha

Arthur Hew
ok good

Of course Good, cause what you don't like had gone and you had fully control the money as you wish and claim as much money as nobody will bother you for example claiming RM1000++ without receipts 

Teng Ang
i don't like too free
cz very sien at home
hahaha
^^

Arthur Hew
ok
so sorry for today.

Sorry?! Fuck yourself lar!! You brainless GUY!! 

Teng Ang
haha
nvm..

I don't mind cause you are not worth for me to care for, idiot!

Arthur Hew
but i really hope to get a more convenient one
it's too hard for us to communicate

Convenient? Convenient cause nobody will be there and make you hard to do things? 
Communicate? Come on, everyone know that the hardest person to communicate is YOU, genius! 

Teng Ang
you suka
u the boss
i x ape d
^^
cause
since we not working very happy jiu no need force each other

Arthur Hew
ya i hop to get an understanding on each other
continue also we sure have more problem onward

Understanding? Since when understanding is in your dictionary?! 
Problem? We already had problem last year, now only got problem? Are you OK?

Teng Ang
haha
but for your information
I have the time
haha
watever
cause i don't really mind
you can do what you like about it
hahaha
^^

Arthur Hew
we still have alot chance to cooperative

Teng Ang
gahhaha NO THANKS!

Arthur Hew
1 thing is
i really appreciate all the while u helped me
i never forgot.

Teng Ang
haha REALLY? I DON'T THINK SO!

Arthur Hew
that why i will always patient even though we have different view or opinion

Patient? Or you don't have the ability to reason over me?! Which one is it? 

Teng Ang
hahha ITS YOU PATIENT OR ME? 

Arthur Hew
same to candy.

Teng Ang
no comment on it
^^
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO COMMENT? 

Arthur Hew
ya
we shld talk about it actually
but after alot thinghappened.

Talk again and wasted my 3 hours time?! NO THANKS!

Teng Ang
ntg to talk about actually
YES!!! Nothing to talk actually! In fact I don't want to talk with you right now!!! 

Arthur Hew
i think this is best way.

Best for YOU ONLY, genius!! We all forseen your death in front, so Good luck with it! 

Teng Ang
cz you cant face the fact
and you just want somebody that listen to you
follow what you do
so.. i am not the type
you are not the type of leader that i can follow
so, all the time i always try to help
sicne you say that
i don't have to stay
in fact
i don't want to stay
i have more clubs and people that appreciate of what i did for them
so no point lar
really
you think that it is the best
it's not
its only best for you
but wadever it is

Arthur Hew
ic
ok..

Teng Ang
decision had made
i don't mind
hahah
I REALLY WANT TO JUST SAY, FUCK OFF!

Arthur Hew
if anything happened
let me face the problem
i duwnan drag more friend

Haha, you just no capable to over power me

Teng Ang
haha
IF YOU CAN FACE THE PROBLEM, THERE WILL NOT BE SO MANY PPL SCARE OF YOU

Arthur Hew
i will remember your word

remember?! If you really remember, I kill myself right now!

28 minutes agoTeng Ang
you rmb cai say lar
hahaha
i already give up on you long time ago
ahhaha
=p

Arthur Hew
hope one day I know the reason.
ya i cant catch it now sincerely
1 question
do you think i am selfish?

Teng Ang
hahaha
thats your problem
selfish or not
depends on the definition

Arthur Hew
on your view
cause u said jz now
i think it's best
but is base on me rite
meant i am selfish d

Teng Ang
hahaha
i know that siew chynn derrick them don't really like me
but now if i leave
you think that how siew chyn will do?
do things i do?
cause you are a totally typical sleeping president?
you just want to find ppl that listen what you said like siew chyn
not ppl like me
haha
When siew chyn know i quit
I know that she might tot its my fault
but i don't really mind
cause i know what i had done
and what happened
but i know she only mention "sei lo"
means she knows how tired she will be in the future
so..
no coment
selfish or not
you already know

Arthur Hew
i fail on this.

Not only this, you are a totally a failure

Teng Ang
you rather to bring the club die even you know you can't manage it
so..
define selfish yourself
there is nobody can tell you whether you are selfish or not
if you make sense then only you understand

Arthur Hew
ok..
actually
alot thing i din really tell out
sometime no chance.
after listen u
i also feel abit selfish

BULLSHIT! I told you so many times now only you get it?! haha, ONE YEAR you can't input it now you understand the theory?! OVER MY DEATH BODY!! 

Teng Ang
that's what me n candy tried to tell you
but u don't want to really masuk ear
so..
sendiri think lar
cz if we say also no point
Teng Ang
just to tell you
i am mad with you
go ask Yaya, and Candy or Siok Ching
what's my reaction

Arthur Hew
ok.

Teng Ang
You just not worth for me lar
you can be a friend, but not my leader

Arthur Hew
ok.
then let me go through.

Teng Ang
haha YOU ARE ENJOYING, SO DON'T LIE !

Arthur Hew
so u wan pass all the thing to me? all siok ching to siew chyn?
etc : the club chop and budget claiming
already done or haven touch up?

Teng Ang
touched up and cancelled le
so you guys go settle lar

15 minutes agoArthur Hew
ok.
so u wan "jiao dai" me?

14 minutes agoTeng Ang
for...?

You really think I will jiao dai everything to you??!
NO!! 
After what you had said
NO NO NO! 
I will left rubbish to you as what you always does to me

Arthur Hew
the things
left over one

Teng Ang
i posted everything in the post
just followed up those

That's what I left for you! NOTHING ELSE! 

Arthur Hew
i know
but the details
like budget inside receipt
already pasted?

You want it?! haha, next life please!

Teng Ang
i will give to siew chynn

Arthur Hew
at least i need responsible over it now
ok
and all the report also ya
past till current

You want it?! haha, come to my house and get it 
And you really think I will give to you and let you ask me stuff??!
NO THANKS!

Teng Ang
i will give back those recipts that you gave me
so
others i find d i will taking back

Arthur Hew
okok

Teng Ang
means you ahve to find other recipts

Arthur Hew
which one?
cause i dont know which u submited or which haven
ok la i dunwan ask more..
u just pass watever then if got question baru ask u
ok?

You think I will answer your calls or reply your message AGAIN?!
I am not stupid man! 
I am not going to be nice to you ANYMORE you ass hole!

Teng Ang
ok waht?
line very sucks here
i can't see waht you had sent
ARGH!
GG

Arthur Hew
got le ma the msg

Opppsss, lost contact! bye bye~!







所有魔羯都拥有２个性格，只是大部分魔羯都不愿意去接受，因为他们希望自己永远的傻傻的活下去，魔羯的坏可以媲美过所有星座，也许他们不相信，但是随着时间的积累魔羯的人在慢慢变坏，其实这也是一种自我保护，他们需要知道了解自己最后的一张王牌，做不做就看对方是否达到让魔羯抱负的地步了，这并不是在表扬，似乎用阴险可以形容，当魔羯讨厌一个人的时候那就是一种绝对，魔羯不会随便讨厌一个人，但是如果哪个人做的太过分，这个人会从魔羯心底彻底抹杀，如果这个人激怒了魔羯，呵呵那么这个人就只能等着灾难的降临。

Sorry, you are the one! Don't mess with me!

魔羯是个比较城府的人，他们不会表面去得罪了，但是他们会计划着让这个人知道他所做的事情将会给自己带来多大的回报，魔羯的报复手段极其残忍，他会加倍的还给你，（如果你有一天遭受到摸名的灾难那么你去想想你在什么时候得罪了魔羯）魔羯并不会随便的去加害一个人，因为魔羯也讨厌自己的坏，他们是天才的杀手，一切的一切从很早以前就做好计划，而且这些计划在没有事件出现前他们就在考虑如何完美并无破绽的进行报复计划，也许这些和他的悲观有些联系，魔羯的人很了解世界，但他们固执的相信美好尽管自己知道那是不可能的，大部分魔羯都讨厌坏坏的自己，当然想抛弃自己是不可能的。

26/07/2012 (Tuesday)

Everything started perfectly well today
Well, even I am late for class
It is still a good day for me
At least

I realized that I have no clothes to wear
Cause I haven't keep them inside
Lazy
So I found the only shirt I have and rush out
And they thought that I was wearing very nice today
Well, honestly NO
I just happen to have no clothes
Sorry to dissapointed you

Then things got really really crazy then
Well, it's regarding to our Mr. Arthur

He wanted to claim his saman yesterday
But I didn't allow him to do so
Then he said that he wanted to pass things to me
I told him that I have class from 11am until 7pm
Then he said that he wanted to meet me at 12pm
I say fine
But then lecturer was teaching and I was sitting in front
Some more I am late for class
I didn't dare to go out
So I told Arthur I at class
And he told me he will be in MMU until 4pm
Suddenly lecturer warned us about the attendance
He wanted to call each person for attendance for the last 15 minutes
He gave us 5 minutes break
I messaged him for a meet
He told me he at home now
And he said he can meet me now
Well, I guess 5 minutes break and soon will be attendance marking
Then I just told him that no need to come
Then he said that he had something important to talk with me
I replied him "I don't have the time"
Then guess what he replied me?
"Please don't give me this lame excuses, if you don't have the time resigned please"
That moment I was totally mad
I passed to Siok Ching
And she is madder than I am

Honestly, I was nearly cried cause of madness
Somebody that is not capable of doing this and keep on asking people to do things
I did the things more than I should do as treasurer
And what you gave me?
You gave me problems and rubbish
Everytime you showed up you gave me problems where I tried to help but none of them go into your brain
Yet you think that you are right
Guess you never get it
Cause you never really think of anything
All you do because you feel that you are right
You never get what me and Candy mention to you

I did more than enough for Photography Clubs
You know how happy I wanted to quit?
I did what a President should do
Master Plan?
Plan Appreciation Dinner?
AGM game?
Go back and looked at the TO DO LIST in the past
And that time what you did?
Talk talk talk and do nothing

I quit I saved a lot of time and energy
Cause we all know what kind of president you are
And how you manage the money
First, you don't have the concept of money and  you like to claim whatever you like
You just never going to understand
You told me that

ok.
btw one thing
if candy wan leave
let her leave
if u wan leave
also can...i dont want burden anyone anymore
if this club die on my hand
let it be.
i dont want lost any friend.
I was so tired to think all committees already

You rather let the club die on your hand
Doing what you doing
Let the club die with you than letting others do president

You asked me whether are you selfish?
Well, think yourself
Whether you are selfish

I guess you are just a failure
Like I told you last year
You failed in your life as well as club
You said that you will change
Honestly, what the fucking ass hole you had change?
You are just the same!
You are older than I am
But
Really
No matter how people wanted you to change you won't

You asked me to resigned
You know what?
I was going to replied you
"Well, go fucked yourself and see how the clubs will die! I am done here!"
But I didn't

You said that this is the best
Well, honestly you just want somebody that can listen to what you say
Bad saying is You want some people that won't reject you
You wish you have as much Siew Chynn you can
Well, its clearly stated that you are failed
Now and future

Attention to Committees,

Since the president feels that I am not capable of handling the position, and feels that I am not doing things in the club. Besides, since I had asked to resign from this position, instead of not having the true heart towards the clubs, I here by accepts the proposal by the president and officially resigned my position as treasurer. It will save a lot of trouble for everyone.

All the receipts I will return to photography club, but only the receipts you guys gave me, those that I found myself I will take it back for other club budget purposes.
Since I had resigned I am not responsible for doing anything anymore, thus those that I suppose to in charge I will return back the responsibly to the clubs
1. Refreshment for workshop
2. Budget claiming
3. Club chop
4. Annual financial statement paperwork

Hope you guys will understand my situation since I have a lot of lame excuses that I can't attend most of the activities and I didn't do anything, it will be better if I just resign as you wish.

And now you wanted me to give you the budget and receipts?
In your dream 
You want the financial report?
You think I will be treating you nicely?
No thanks
I won't give you what you want 
Don't worry 
Even if I will give you 
It won't be easy 
It's time to pay back!
What you did to me 
I won't make it easy for you


I had really give you  totally honour 
So, don't be naive that I will be treating you nicely 
Just like what Billy told me last year
It's time to let you face the problem without people helping you
Good Luck!

Mother F***er

You are just one of the Mother F***er I know
I guess you really really pissed me off today!
Go and F*** yourself then
See how good you are, Mother F***er!

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Kah Hoe
Wish you all the best in everything
Stay Happy ^^

I can't Sleep

Listening to Song
Feeling very Tired
BUT I just can't sleep!

It's Late

Alright, I guess everything is almost done.
1. Photography Club Budget - Checked
2. Tennis Club Budget  - Checked
3. CPC Name List - jack on the way
4. St. John Mail - Checked
5. Tourism Club - Nothing for me to do

Things to do
1. Photography Club Chop
2. Tennis Club Budget with Wee Pang
3. CPC name list inform
4. St. John sms every members
5. Tourism Club - Nothing to do

Nothing

There is nothing I can be mad of
It's no longer difference of what my feelings are

Nobody to Blame

Well, it's not about time is TOO packed up
It's because all of us are playful

We went to Limteh until 2am plus
Just to catch up with friends
It's our decision
Then it should be expected that we might be wake up late

Then you went for football and reached home around 6am
Did you expect yourself to catch  8am bus?
Impossible

I guess there is nobody to blame that time is packed up while we have to rush to catch 12pm bus
Then come back Melaka on Sunday cause you have 9am class on Monday

It is really nobody to blame while have a lot of stuff that you want to do
While you know at the first place you have TOO many things packed up together

Hard to Take Care of You

It's really hard to take care of you
When you cough like hell
You never tried to limit yourself from eating stuff
You started to limit yourself when I wanted you to recover faster

I bought a lot of soup ingredient for you
I even cooked a lot of herbal water for you
And you finished them all without leaving some for me
Things started to get better
Then you went for MacDonald

Then you got fever
Cooked porridge and Bitter for you
Then you recovered
When you recovered you wanted to go to Movida with me
But I rejected

Everything started to get better
Then you wanted to eat sushi, then goreng stuff
Fine, I let you to
I cooked Bali for you

Then you went to MacDonald AGAIN
I bet you did order something
Don't think that I am stupid
Then you got worst again

Later back hometown you wanted to eat Durian
How the hell???!!

Its really hard to take care of you

Brother VS Lover

Brother VS Lover
Which one you prefer?

I don't mind to have lots of brothers
Cause I don't mind for them you "sayang" me
Yes, I am greedy
But
It's true cause my own elder sister is the one I taking care of her

And Yes,
A brother will forever be brother
A brother won't be a lover
It's more towards impossible

So, Choose it

Position Offer

I am going to doomed!
I currently are
1. Secretary of St. John
2. Secretary of Tourism Club
3. Treasurer of Tennis Club
4. Treasurer of Golden Key Club
5. Treasurer of Photography Club
Still got other clubs need me to be treasurer?
I don't want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So many how to handle??????
OMG!!!!

Breaking Dawn Part II

6th of November !
Can't wait to watch it!
Really really really really want to watch it SOooooo much!

Nap Again

Slept through 2 hours 

Very Tired I guess 

Still head rush!

Nap

Wake up from nap
But total head rush!
Head very heavy and dizzy!

21/06/2012

運勢内容整體運 解析特別提醒男士朋友，即使你的女伴說送花是一種浪費，也要深信沒有哪個女人不會希望收到情人送的花；今天創意思維活躍，設計工作者可要好好把握稍縱即逝的靈感；多給自己一些時間，讓自己安靜的思考往後的感情道路該如何走。


Wow! I guess it is very accurate
I did have a lot of designing task to do 
But don't feel like got any inspiration 


The last sentence 
Guess it is true as well 

愛情運 解析愛情運一般，小心因異性朋友而損財。


Justin! 

事業運(學業) 解析今日事業上有坐享其成、事半功倍的機會，可以稱得上是一帆風順的一天唷！

財運 解析
金錢上小麻煩多多，不利於投機或賭博，省得惹來一身腥又不得安寧。

Flyers

This background look nice
But the problem is too empty 

Certificate Design
It came out out of no where
I guess I will be slaughtered by people when they saw this
Well, it is worth to try didn't it even it doesn't look nice

This is a total mistakes
I really really have no mood to do it
But I still have to finish them
So just do it!

Another design to do
Jezzzz
Blur + Tired

which one you like then?

Tired Tired and Tired

God Damn! I am so tireD

STOMACH

My stomach!
Jezzzzzzz..
Already so many days
Shouldn't you getting better??
Why worsen everyday??????????????????

AGM

There are 3 AGM running together today at the same time
Went to Tourism Club first and arrange the tables and stuff
The feeling of having in the Tourism Club had change
Well, I don't know why
But I guess I am fine with them if they are as well

Then I went to St. John interview session but there are nobody coming
I was worried whether can Xiao Win can settle or not
But then there are others be there
So I am  not that worry

Then Photography Club
It's obvious that Arthur don't want to bother what me and Candy said
So I won't mind what he told me
And I absorb a person told me that "Don't mind what people say, do what you think you will be happy"

Then I dropped by Tennis Club
But I didn't enter
I just watched from outside
I guess I worried to see what I will see
I was afraid to see him
I walked away very fast when I saw him looking towards at my direction

Then everything starts to run in Tourism AGM
There are a lot of people
The whole ACR full!
I was busy carry chairs around where Yao Yi them are busy interviewing people
Then everything started
Games as well

When having break time
I walked to see Tennis Club Ice Breaking
It should be running fine without me
Then I go back to be MC for the game session

Very tiring
Cleaned all the mess created
Then supper with the committees
Obviously they don't want to supper with me
So, I don't mind

AGM of so many clubs
I think I still have my own feeling towards Tourism Club and Tennis Club as well
Since they are the clubs that I joined since I enter MMU
BUT I can't drop by and joined the AGM organized by Tennis Club
Guess that's the consequences that I had to take
Endure and bare with it

Tomorrow 8am class
Can I wake up?

But my stomach still not feeling well
Will I feel unwell tomorrow?
Nobody knows

对不起

对不起
请你原谅我的狠

Just ONE answer and I am gone I promise

Just realize that I posted this post before
I guess this is why

Wednesday, May 16, 2012 Last Question....................................................Just one answer and I am gone I promise


This make me realize where everything started 

Turbo Engine to the Max!

Today I woke up very early even though I slept very late last night after long chatting with Kah Hoe
Class at 11am continuously until 7pm
Went to settle Prom Night thing
Then the budget thing
Calculate this and that
Thinking ways to settle
Thinking ideas for AGM
Arrangement and stuff
Things that I need to do
Honestly
I list out in my Diary Book
It's really A LOT!!!

What I done today?
1. Done Tennis Open Budget (Haven't photostate yet)
2. Done Prom Night stuff
3. Arrange PCM AGM
4. Quarrel and argue with Arthur (get into really mad makes me more tired)
5. Studied the CA and MA tutorial

After all these I went for tuition
And during that moment I nearly collapse cause I am really really am SLEEPY!!
Then Justin ask me go for badminton
Jack even promise him on my behalf
Well, at first I was like OK
But at the end I have to change clothes and play badminton directly after tuition
Come ON!!
I can't!!
So I reject them and went home

Then what I did when I went home?
1. Online Proposal for Photography Club
2. Update Info for AGM
3. Find receipts
4. 4 Bulletin for Photography Club
5. 2 Bulletin for Tennis Club

HOnestly, I feel like I really really turbo all my engine to the Max!
Time to sleep!
Good night

Stuck

You and me stuck in a situation where there is no way to turn back or move forward
No matter what I do is wrong
No matter what I say is never right

I really don't know what to do to get everyone better
Yes, I know
This can't be happen
But whatelse?

We are all stuck

Membership Card

This morning design another membership card again
I wonder since when I in charge with design thing??

I really don't like where Arthur keep on asking me do things
I mean, he is the President
And now we only have 5 people doing it, why he is the one asking people to do?
Shouldn't we doing together?

Things that I have to do for AGM:
1. Think game (done)
2. Conduct meeting for game
3. Game Master
4. Membership card Design (who knows should I liminate and cut those cards)
5. Contact members
6. Online proposal
7. Bulletin Board
8. Slide
9. Logo Design
Come ON!! Be logic!!

Then I still have to design 2 flyers for workshop and outing
Somemore doing the publishing stuff!
Really really really irritating with HIM!!

But I guess these are the design
Not really like the photography design cause I can't add any colour
What he sent me not the original copy
How am I suppose to add colour??
*Headache*

Black Flim

I want to make it like very old film but I don't really know how to make it

White Film

Worried that there might be no white pen to write over the black background 

So I tried to change it to white

But it doesn't look that nice as I thought 

Hanging Photo!

Yes! I love this background very much 

But the whole thing look very empty and weird 

Another failure

Club Logo

Well, this is obviously no idea what I am doing 

I tried to use logo as background 

But there is no colour

Plain black and white become card?

Not really a good idea

Studio Style

I tried to fully utilize the boxes 

But again

I don't know what to do 

Totally no inspiration 

Tennis Racket and Ball

I admit I like this one 

But too bad 

It's not my design 

I just use the picture as background and put all the stuff together 

It was just accident when I simply put everything 

Then I feel that it is not that bad as I thought 

T for Tennis

This one, the original doesn't look like this 

This is don't know which event logo 

I modify it 

This one I just simply put cause it seems like very rude to have only one design for people to choose 

Since I am so not good in designing 

I think I should come out with another one

That's the reason why this exist at the first place

So, After seeing all these stupid design
What do you think?

Yes, I know
I am not good in designing
And my skill on software very bad
Trying to improve
^_^

Tonight

It's 1.20am in the morning
Still not really in mood to sleep

I tried to design a new design for the card at first
But as I tried to modify the original card instead of really design it
I face a death end
I have totally no idea what should I do or design
No clue
Maybe I was mad that time

Then I tried to edit the original membership card for at least 1 hour
But I failed
No matter how I make it it looks very cacat
And I already used at least 3 software to do it
Still I failed

I really gave up
Then I started to surf internet to find some interesting tennis stuff
I just really Tennis design is very very dull
Until I saw something nice
Then I found a lot of nice stuff
The problem is they are all logos
Which means it is all copyrighted
Can I really use it?
Well, I don't know
If I can I really want to use it

I modify one
I just joined up the line
I think if anybody try to sue me I am dead
Whatever

Really no in mood now
Arthur is finding me to ask me do things
Kelvin as well

And everyone put AGM on Wednesday
Tourism Club
Photography Club
Tennis Club
All in one night
Am I going to split myself into 3?

I don't want to go to Tourism Club AGM
Because I scare that I might end up very unhappy

I don't want to Photography Club AGM
Because Arthur will tries to cramp everything to me and I seriously don't like it

Tennis Club?
Yeah, it sounds very friendly to me
I kinda want to go actually
But then I realized all the close friends that I used to have all in intern
Duh~ started to know people again?
When can this meeting new people cycle ever stop?

I don't know what happen to me lately
I don't like to go out as I used to
I like to stay at home even I am bored to death
I don't like to get to know new people
Not to mention I even lazy to entertain my friends that ask me out

What happen to me?
I am really really crazy already

Again
While doing the membership card
I got at least 5 mosquitoes bites on my legs!
I hate mosquitoes
Everyone slept already

Alone again

Lies

I guess I know why I don't believe
Cause I know something that you don't know I know
Maybe you don't know it yourself
But I guess sooner you will understand what you are thinking
It is much obvious than you think

Mixx

First time I am not going with Rene and Justin them
Yes, I am so very uncomfortable
Cause I am just a kid
And I went with Shenn and Kah Hoe Joseph them

First time as well I didn't prepare and dress well to go
But I guess it is fine
Cause I don't have to care

I didn't drink much tonight
But I end up dizzy as well
I guess due to the lights and don't know what alcohol they give me

I abit regret that I "put aeroplane" on them
And I am sorry that I am not that fun
Cause I am really not that comfortable without a real close friends around
And I am sorry that Shenn quarrel with her boyfriend
And I think she doesn't enjoy as well
Not sure whether it is us or is her boyfriend

But
Something happen tonight
It's bothers me
But Jack said it's fine
But it really shocked me
Well, I really didn't used to dance with a guy that I just seen once
And yes, he hug me
I am totally shocked!!
Then he dance with me a lots of time
And I think Kah Hoe tried to protect me or what
He tried to pull me but never success
Whatever it is
I don't mind dance with Kah Hoe or hug by him cause I know him
But it really shocked me when some other guy just suddenly come and hug me
I still not get used with this environment

Today
It makes me feel likes I don't like Mixx than I used to like it

But now
Jack get worst from his illness
Worried him

And I am so dizzy now
Feeling hot and uncomfortable

Justin birthday is coming
What should we do to plan to celebrate?
Mixx again?
Not sure
Depends on the mood
Else just a meal will do
Depends on him

步步惊心

1. 《步步惊心》片尾曲主题曲-三寸天堂-严艺丹
2. 《步步惊心》插曲-等你的季节-刘诗诗
3. 《步步惊心》片头主题曲-一念执着-胡歌&Alan
4. 雕刻爱情-郑嘉嘉
5. 雪花红梅-龚淑均
6. 一念执著- 胡歌&阿兰
7. 等你的季节- 刘诗诗
8. 三寸天堂- 严艺丹
9. 步步惊心- 黄英华
10.奇梦-黄英华
11.别恐惧-黄英华
12.堡垒-黄英华
13.毒- 黄英华
14.陌生-黄英华
15.郁- 黄英华
16.皇室来临-黄英华
17.功夫-黄英华
18.倾慕- 黄英华
19.欢欣- 黄英华
20.奇幻- 黄英华
21.小可爱- 黄英华
22.情毒-黄英华
23.不要走-黄英华
24.悲-黄英华
25.追惊-黄英华

MacDonald

I guess it's really obvious that my emotion is seriously affected by what happen lately
Even I worried by a lot of people around me

Yes, I love it so much
I want to let go
But like you guys mention
I can't let go cause it is what I love and what I used to work hard for
I felt that it's not worth to let go everything

But there are part of me that I wish the peaceful of life
I want to think simple
But people like me just can't think simple
Cause my background is not that simple
What I've been through is difficult
From how I was raised, it is different
I think I see things in different point of view
Sometime I can get people's thinking by their small action
Sometime I can know the person behavior by the way they speak and act
I can and I used to do it since I know that people around me is not simple
My life is never simple and peaceful
Not that I think everything too complicated
It's just a protection from letting myself get hurt

I had foreseen everything that happened
Not that I want to praise myself
But I didn't really think very hard on it
It just came to my mind at the first place
It just did
I can't help it
It's like common sense to me

I can't let go cause I love it so much
That's why I remain silent until now
It's not the family I used to have anymore
It's not the environment that I used to love anymore
It's totally a different thing
No matter how hurt it is I have to accept it
No matter how serious it affects my emotion
I know that's the truth and facts that can't be changed

I want to quit cause I don't want to fight
I want peace
I don't want to fight with you guys

I can't let go cause I love it
I missed the time in there

But how many people really understand me?
Instead of thinking me like a disturber?

Well, am I that hard?
I mean why all leaders are so afraid of me?
I just want to be a good follower and help when it is necessary

I never dare to take my own event
No matter how many people tell me to
Cause I worried that I am not capable
Cause I worried that I will failed
I am not a smart person like my sister
I am not a good socialize people like my father
I am not anybody that is good
I am not even convinced myself that I can lead a team
In fact my own team also got problem where I didn't feel like leading anymore

I am tired
Really am
Before I meeting you guys
I planned to let everything go
It is strongly planting in my mind
Just I didn't dare to do it
Cause I really don't feel like I can just let go and walk away
I will miss them so much
That's the reason I am so emotion

Yes, this is no longer a family
Last time position never be an issue
Cause everybody does thing together
Make decision together
But now, it's just like other clubs
Head is head, he or she shows his or her authority
No family
It reminds me about Creative Arts Club

The only reason I stayed here for so long cause I thought that there is no political issues here
But I guess it is no longer the same
And I really don't like it











Can I let go?
or shall I ask: "Should I let go?"
Yes, because
- I am not happy now
- I don't like be neglected
- I want freedom
- I want my health
- I don't want to fight
- I lazy to fight
- I have nothing left for me to motivate myself

No, because
- I work hard to be in this
- I will miss it
- I really love it
- I want to prove myself

At the end, who won?
I really don't know
But honestly, deeply in my heart
I really want to let go everything
Cause I don't want to be unhappy anymore about this
Especially for things that not even worth for

But they came out with a suggestion
It can be worked
Just I have to stand the pressure during this time
Can I stand it?
Or should I ask: Did I WANT to suffer this?
No, cause like he said, I can't accept this anger
I still mad
That's why

But really, Did I really mad because of this?
I more dissapointed
Cause everything is gone
That's why

Now, the past aim had gone
That past motivation had vanished
Yes, I gave up
From the beginning, or should I said from that night I had given myself up
Cause I know if I really want to fight
There will be a war where at the end I won't lost
But I don't want cause it's very childish

So, what should I do now?
Easy to do than say don't you think?
One day, another day for me to think
One last day
Then I shall make my decision
Will I regret? I don't know
I hope I won't

看开

今天突然看开
看到了他们的开心
我一点都开心不起来
心里不再像以前一样为他们高兴

Arthur 也问了我是不是有打算离开
我只是说，我想，但是我留下是为了不让 Siew Chin 辛苦
而他们都误会了我要退出
我也不想解释或挽留
我到底怎么了？

今天本来是要为 Yao Yi 他们开 booth
但是他们迟到了
生气了
非常的生气
为什么？
不懂
只是觉得自己真的被冷落了
然后一直都没有真正在那边笑过
只是一直等时间过

看见了 Yao Yi 他们
根本没办法笑起来
因为我真的不懂为什么他们为什么把那么单纯的团体变得那么政治化？
温暖不见了
开心也不过如此

其实，我这几天真的生病了
我一生至今从来没有真的因为“大姨妈”探望而无法下床
就算以前在辛苦疼痛不想下床只是不想让它更痛更辛苦
但是昨天真的是下不了床
大热天下还一直不停冒冷汗没胃口的
真的从来没有这么弱过
上课都没办法专心
走路真的很希望有个人直接就这样带我回家
自己一个人翘课走路回家的途中
整个身体是浮浮的好像真的没力气一样
说话都没力气的
身子真的那么弱了吗？

但是明显的
已经很久了
我的气喘的药很多年都没有动过
就算是也没有比这几次来的快
分量也没有这几次来的多
有时得吃上两颗才可以停止喘气
是气喘严重了吗？
还是我疑心太重？

最近真的发生了很多事情
我不开心的事也很多
突然觉得
我真的很想双手一放
放开一切
轻轻松松的过我的日子
听我的歌
谈我的琴
写我的部落各
光我的街
看我的戏
读我的书
不用忙来忙去的
被人欺负来欺负去的
辛苦的不停熬夜
赶活动也好
赶功课也好
考试也好
都镇的很久没有真正休息过

这几天
尤其是今天
我想我有点看开了
也许《步步惊心》让我觉得
世界地位的争夺
名义上的权利
代表着什么
真正有意义的是什么？

我真的身体不如以前
胸口有时还不停的疼痛
有时也很喘
说话大声点说久点就上气接不到下气
更不用说跑步
就连稍微走快一点就辛苦了

我去年到第在拚什么？
现在要的到底又是什么？
得到爸爸妈妈的宠爱认同吗？ 在他们心理我永远不如姐姐
得到别人的认可吗？ 就算是由怎样？ 大家都在避忌我
得到以后的保障吗？ 这也只不过自己想要的而已
所以，到底是为了什么把自己的时间填满，让自己的身子变坏？
得到了大家的认同由怎样呢？
就算我赢了又怎样？

我赢过很多很多次
次数，方式无奇不有
要斗，再凶再毒的手段我都用过，唯独伤人害理的事没做过
我真的都经过了
那我到底是为了什么？

看开
想防手
对吗？
可以吗？

没意思

今天遇见了baby
跟她聊了起来
她问起了我昨晚和他怎么了
同时我也告诉她我真的有在考虑全副退出一切团体活动
我告诉她自从那件事后一切已经不如以前了
是, 你说的对, 离开不值得
但是我真的不开心

你说你发现自从那件事后她开始很努力的post东西
就连你负责的怖置活动她也一切包办
你什么都没有办法做什么
你说她怕了我

其实我看到了
那天晚上我已经看到了
这是我严重行不想加入的原因
我不喜欢独立做东西
我喜欢大家一起做
民组的不是什么都听谁的
以前在里面没有分高低大家一起做
现在.? 自己问自己是不是不一样?
我已经预知了, 为什么没人明白我为什么要退呢?
我不要心机, 不要阶级分裂的团体
我曾经打过仗所以不想再斗
没有结果的
真没意思

身体不适

哭了真的能解决问题吗？

哭了
心还是酸的
心还是不明的无奈
心还是无奈的失望
是失望我自己吗？

哭了
喘了
这可是没有要医的病

问题能解决吗？

好想好想退出所有的学会
什么都不要理
但是值得吗？
可以吗？

真的希望问题可以像眼泪流了就过去
流得越多，解决的问题越多
能吗？

有谁能回答我？

想哭但是怎么想都哭不出来

不懂为什么
是不是自己真的不开心了
最近除了补习和上课上心之外
什么都没有心了

最近也很少笑了
是生病吗？
是在担心气喘复发吗？
应该不会，都那么多年了

但是为什么还是不开心
是因为他吗?
也许吧 ~

但是说到最后
我很伤心
被人摆布
被人误会
被人冷落
被人提防
还让人避忌我
难道我真的有那么糟糕吗？

我真的很不相待下去
我不想被人误解我
我不想被人看贬我
我不想被人冷落我

从小就没人看得起我
就连我自己的爸妈都没有人相信我可以
每次都说我不能，我笨
每次就只有我相信我自己
凭着自己的力量
相信这什么都可以改变
没有贵人
没有运气
只要我愿意，一定可以
因为我是凭我自己的实力

看来还真的不是
原来我没办法
我真的好累
为什么是我？

最近很多事情连连
不开心的
伤心的
自己留下了多少的眼泪
自己都数不清了
但是自己到底是为了什么?

真正是因为被人
还是自己过不了自己那一关？

丢脸了？
被人看贬了？
被人看小了？
被人误会了？
失败了？

不懂
也不明白
有谁能为我解开心里的结？

心情疲累

不懂为什么这几天都不想去理会活动的东西
这几天都非常的不开心
有点心酸
不懂为什么

难道是为了那件事？
难道真的影响力那么大？
确实有可能
我真的在那边很开心很开心
可以说是非常的开心
小小的职位
多多的工作
没有厌倦
没有心机
没有原因
心甘情愿
非常的开心
但是为什这个开心就是那么的短呢？

我一向野心很大
但是坦白说野心再大都不比我想要的快乐还大
我宁愿要一个开心和平，也不想跟大家争吵职位的事情
所以一直以来都相信着“凭自己的实力能让大家相信你，接受你，珍惜你”
但是今年我发现其实不是
不是样样都是实力就能代表一切
人家会害怕你厉害
别人会避忌你抢走他的东西
但是说真的，我没有想要抢走任何一样东西
我真的一心一意的为学会付出
你可以说我笨
但是我就是这样
我没有想要回报
唯一的小小的要求是希望人家疼惜我，尊敬我，公平对待我

前几天和 Tourism Club 吵架了
其实从头到尾，我没有硬要那个位置
我只是得不到我想要的
又不想伤感情
所以选这里开
为什么就没人能够理解我呢？

对，我第一次开口说我要当
是我第一次
因为我要证明
因为我要荣誉
我真的什么都做过了
我只想真正的挑战我自己当一个大的
试一试自己是不是有本事
但是是我错过了
我没怪任何人，只怪自己
为什么就没有人能明白呢？

我没有要换人
我没有想要多加人
因为，不适合，不应该，不能
我不想争权夺利
因为我知道抢来的是没有意思的
要人家认定
要自己愿意

事到如今
我真的很不想要了
这已经不是一个家
已经是一个战场了

以前我可以无忧无虑的做我的东西
但是现在每做一件事都要想有没有得罪人
会不会让人误会
心结结了很难解
误会深了不能了
何必呢？

现在大家看到对方好像尴尬的
好像避忌着
为什么？
你就那么怕我抢了你的位置吗？
你那么要，我都没要你下来
我要离开你就不让吗？
你想怎样啊？

现在真的弄到我什么都不想参与
这个家我很不想呆下去
但是我进退两难

你懂你们这样一搞
把这几年的结构都毁了吗？
没有了友情，好像其他的学会一样有目的了

我没办法在这种环境勾心斗角
因为我知道如果要斗
我赢定
但是我不开心

真的很想离开
但是能吗？
我舍得吗？
我真的可以吗？

没有人认定我
发现自己很累
做什么都不对
做什么都有目的
难道真的有吗？

这几天我很悠闲
想回去
我多久没有这样悠闲了
每天都是忙来忙去的
没有办法休息

以前我心甘情愿的
开心的做
但是
现在我不快了

真的可以这样继续下去吗？

老毛病严重复发

昨晚咳了一个晚上
很喘
也很晕
气喘药又所剩无几了
又不想冒险走出去买药
结果咳了一个晚上
很迟才睡觉
今天也很迟才起床

吃了饭也一直不停的咳
真的希望那个王八蛋快点回来带我去买药

看戏无聊的等待着
等啊等~

自己也忙了起来
洗衣服，晒衣服，洗厕所，抹地扫地的
流了满身都是汗
眼镜又坏了一直掉下来
真的是非常讨厌
奇怪，我一声都没咳
难道又像回以前了？
难道多多运动才会好？

讨厌讨厌
不要再咳嗽了！！！！！！