Sunday, April 22, 2012

Now what?

So now is my fault for not contact you?
Whatever!
Really whatever you like!!!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Alcohol Week

My purse is going to burst soon..
Sad!!

These few days I was covered with alcohol
Tomorrow I will have to go to Mixx(My wish to do so)
And Saturday they plan to go to OT to celebrate Boon Sheng's birthday
Jezzzzzz

No comment given
All I know is I will be dead!
OMG

Saturday, April 14, 2012

First Quarrel between me and Justin

Great!

Shameful

Sometime I feel shameful to have such a sister
Really

Indeed, she still very proud of herself
And dare to speak bad about me so that she can be more saint and morale

It is just bullshit!

Friday, April 6, 2012

I need support

I need help
I need support
I need solution
I need
I need
I need!

Anybody can help me?

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

I Need You Now

Picture Perfect Memories Scattered All Around The Floor
Reachin' For The Phone 'cause I Can't Fight It Anymore
And I Wonder If I Ever Cross Your Mind
For Me It Happens All The Time

It's A Quarter After One, I'm All Alone And I Need You Now
Said I Wouldn't Call But I Lost All Control And I Need You Now
And I Don't Know How I Can Do Without
I Just Need You Now

Another Shot Of Whiskey Can't Stop Looking At The Door
Wishing You'd Come Sweeping In The Way You Did Before
And I Wonder If I Ever Cross Your Mind
For Me It Happens All The Time

It's A Quarter After One, I'm A Little Drunk And I Need You Now
Said I Wouldn't Call But I Lost All Control And I Need You Now
And I Don't Know How I Can Do Without
I Just Need You Now

Woah Woaaah.

Guess I'd Rather Hurt Than Feel Nothin' At All
It's A Quarter After One I'm All Alone And I Need You Now
And I Said I Wouldn't Call But I Lost All Control And I Need You Now
And I Don't Know How I Can Do Without
I Just Need You Now
I Just Need You Now (wait)
Ooo, Baby, I Need You Now

觉得很疲累!

Headache + Weird

Is it because of last night's rain?
I am so headache now!! ARGH

不爱了也是一种爱

独自 走到你我相遇咖啡馆
记忆 早已不在这里转

熟悉位置空出一半
一个人有狠舒服的宽
你不在 就像画的留白

走过 分手路口不会再拐弯
曾经 伤心对白也风轻云淡

当承诺变承担 把期待等成了心酸
终於明白放手才会是最好的慷慨

原来不爱了也是一种爱
原来心痛也能被温柔对待
  
阳光 透进来 把心打开 用释怀换个灿烂
不恨了 也是一种爱
祝福没有想像那麼难
在爱情的转弯
天空依然还是那麼蔚蓝


当承诺变承担 把期待等成了心酸
终於明白放手才会是最好的慷慨

原来不爱了也是一种爱
原来心痛也能被温柔对待
阳光 透进来 把心打开 用释怀换个灿烂
不恨了 也是一种爱
祝福没有想像那麼难
在爱情的转弯
天空依然还是那麼蔚蓝

相爱 总是那麼的困难 不爱也难 人就是 要这样走过来
原来不爱了也是一种爱
原来心痛也能被温柔对待
阳光 透进来 把心打开 用释怀换个灿烂
不恨了 也是一种爱
祝福没有想像那麼难
在爱情的转弯
天空依然还是那麼蔚蓝

03/04/2012

Today is another busy day
Got mistaken my class during Tutorial
Very funny
But nevermind, still manage to go to class

After that, booth duty
ARGH
I nearly kill people
Really
Haizzz
Really no eyes see

Busy whole day today
Meetings over meetings
Homeworks over homworks

Finally reached home now
10am out 12am reach home
Typical time!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

别再哭了

伤心情歌播几遍了
你的眼还是红红的
生命总有些过客
现在不过多了一个
结束了何必再拉扯
有心事总该遗忘的
你听着听着又哭了
我明白的 谁都难免不舍
别再哭了 多不值得
笑一笑把 爱情看透彻
生活苦涩 该他负责
他会后悔 他做了这选择
别再哭了 多不值得
失去也是另一种获得
伤心情歌 不属你的
幸福 不一定非爱谁不可
难熬的 会经过的
爱错了 又能如何

Monday, April 2, 2012

Afraid

Prom Night tickets only sold for 20 tables
Still have 50 tables to go
Can I sell finish?
What should I do if I can't?

People keep on ignore me
I hate that
I want to help
But they keep thinking that I am useless
Is that I am so useless?

I really hate when people think that my effort is rubbish
I did what the best I can
I even contribute my health, my time, my energy, almost everything

Scare of losing faith and trust from people
Scare of another failure event


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JPA just banked in my elaun
Hopefully I can use the money well
Hope that it won't like last time

I still remember I keep on eat and buy stuff when I was unhappy
This time no matter how much I am so unhappy
I will not going to spend any penny
"Not anymore, to spend a penny on something like that," I warned myself

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Exam is coming
I didn't really nervous yet
Maybe cause I have too many thing to do
But I started to worry

Everytime I go to class
I lost my focus

Either I am tired
Or something else that affects me
Then it will drag my emotion for the rest of the day

Really hate this feeling
Hate the feeling to be such stupid for something that is not worth

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Prom Night is coming
How am I suppose to look like
With dress and make up stuff

Argh~~
Really~
Come on, I can't ease myself

I can't imagine
Especially when I am so stress lately

Am I going to be another clown that night?
Will people going to laugh at me just like Justin did?
Saying me that I am so NOT attractive and fat and so on

Well, maybe he didn't notice
I nearly cried everytime he said that
haha~
I guess I just like small kid
I still remember I cried everytime whenever people laugh at me cause I am fat
But dad scold me that I am idiot cause people's laugh won't hurt me
And I should be mature and cannot cry that easily

That's was the last time I cried in front of my parents
Besides got cane by them
That's the reason why I always cry by myself
That's the reason why I like to pretend I am fine in front of people

Even I can feel the sharp pain when he tease me
Well, I know he might just kidding
But I guess the jokes pretty sharp to me
You know what's funny?
I still can laugh and pretend nothing happen
I really can be an actress

Honestly, I know I am fatter than last time
Did I really so hidious?
He said that people like me, not to mention guys, even girl will not even interested

Guess I am really scare I will be another joke on the prom night itself

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Can I actually rule the event?
I am going to be the main instructor that night
Can I actually make it works?
Can I cope with it?

I am worry and scare
People had lost faith on me
Can I finished the event like I dreamt?

I don't know
But I don't have the faith to myself either

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I just been a stupid girl
I guess I am more towards silly girl

I should have suspected that today wasn't my day
Cause I knocked my leg on the door when I walked out the house
Tripped over when I cross the road

But really never thought it so accurate
My six-sense is sooo accurate

Nevermind
Whatever he said or he think or he do
Won't hurt me anymore
I promise myself
Never ever let anybody hurt me anymore

No matter how much I afraid
I will cope with it
Cause I know I can get over when I smile
I still have the smile
It still with me
Means I am save

I always love my smile no matter how scare I am
It's the only shield that can protect me
haha


No matter how afraid I am
Afraid of failure
Afraid of hurting
Afraid of losing

I will get my smile and up again ^^