Damn Happy !

Finally come!!

No need to take medicine!!!

Happy Happy Happy~!!

But But But

Another issue - Pain

>.<"

Good morning

Today when I wake up

It's raining

Still abit tired

But can't sleep back

Maybe is the side effect of the exam

See what exam done to me?!

By the way

Today mood is damn good

Wonder why

But nevermind

Have a nice day for today.. ^^

Letter To GOD

Dear God,

I am having FAR II examination in 1 1/2 Hours, please let me finish this examination with peace and calm. I promise I will try my best to score the subjects. Please let me pass this subject. Please. If there is C, I will accept the consequences that I didn't actually really put effort during this semester. But Please don't let me fail.

May God bless all of the people who taking FARII

teng

Now, I aim for pass

Pray that these topic will come out

1. Construction contract

2. Impairment asset

3. Revenue recognition

4. Borrowing Cost

If these topic is easy and I will certainly passed

Please

Let me pass

As I beg and pray

Very scare by NOW

Very scared now

All the topic I had covered

I only really can understand

1. Construction Contract

2. Revenue Recognition

3. Impairment Asset

4. Borrowing Cost

Not yet study

1. Investment

2. Policy

Still not able to do the questions

1. Consolidation

2. Cash Flow (The worst)

Others

1. Intangible Asset

2. Business Combination

3. Inventories

4. Ratio

Damn scare by now

Really

Study study study

It's 2.14am

Damn tired by now

Hungry somemore

Just finished study

1. Impairment Asset

2. Intangible Asset

3. Business Combination

4. Inventories

And I am just glance through

Damn tired ~~!

It's 1.25 am

Good morning guys

But it seems like a lot of MMU Accounting Student still awake and suffer with FAR II

Well, my World War II haven't started

But I almost die half way

I just finished revision

1. Construction Contract

2. Revenue Recognition

3. Consolidation

4. Borrowing Cost

I spent almost 1 hour for this

Still have

1. Impairment Asset

2. Intangible Asset

3. Business Combination

4. Cash Flow (not really touch before)

5. Policy

6. Investment

7. Inventories

8. Ratio

Assuming that I use 1 hour for 4 topics

I need AT LEAST 2 more hours

But for Cash Flow

I think I need more time

Means I need 2-3 hours

NOT including tutorial exercise

NOT including past year exercise

NOT including sleeping

NOT including eating

OMG

I am going to be death SOON

But I rather to be so

An A for FAR II and get die half way ?

It's damn worth ~!

Good luck guys~~

PS: Dear Yi Mei still struggling her Management memorizing, Good Luck Dear~!

One more War —— World War II (Teng Version)

French done perfectly
Better than I think
So no problem for that

Now...
Here she comes
I assume it as "she" because she is just as scary as our lecturer
For those who doesn't really know what I am talking about
Financial Statement and Reporting II!!
This is one of the most wonderful subject in Accounting

Tomorrow is the paper
And I not really finish study or revision
Shall I survive tomorrow??!

My version of World War I is when FAR I that semester where I was taking
1. FAR I
2. MA I
3. Finance
4. Management
5. Macro economy
Something like that if I not mistaken
3 calculation which is my weakness as I lazy to do exercises
Management memorizing 15 chapters almost 500++ pages
I memorize ALL~~!!

Now the World War II is worst
As I didn't go to class
Didn't do any tutorial
Didn't understand what is that topic at all
So
It's pretty much a challenge to me
IF I really score 4 flat this semester
I will proudly announce myself
"I AM A GENIUS!"

So now, After dinner
I am going to start my preparation for the war
I need to input all the bullets and bombs last minutes
Hopefully she is not that scary
Either she dies or I die
Which I honestly prefer she is the one who DIES
I want to concur you FAR
BE ready when I am there~!

---- To be continue for the Ending ----

Going to Break Down SOON

French, just get started
Start to nervous

THe worst thing FAR
SHit~!
still got lots to go
HOW???

Nervous + Scare
Emotion comes again like last time
OMG~
PASS PASS PASS
FAR let me PAASSSSSS

4 Down, 2 To Go

Good afternoon
After 1 hour of deep sleep and rest
I am energetic ~!
WoW
Never really sleep that deep and peace during exam
Finally can sleep that well
Happy ^^

But Even left 2 more subjects
My taxation
Well, I sort of in the "giving up" situation just now
I don't really want to care as I don't really know how to do
BUt nevermind
Should be A I guess
Hopefully

The hardest and the most scary paper
F A R
When I think of FAR it sound like "Fear And Run"
I feel like running
its 3.18pm
Still got half day to go
Focus Focus Focus

Go get a nice sweet bath first
Then my afternoon is perfect with Food, drink, game, sleep and peace
Then here's when the FAR attack me
Who cares
I will just enjoy my sweet lovely bath first

Mad!

Damn it~!
Like everybody like to make me mad
What the hell
Is it that fun to make me mad somehow?
Or is that my problem?
When I got mad, you said me show my temper
When I remain silent, you say another thing
What you want

Then sometime when people wish somebody to bother
He end up ask you go to bed
Right, my bad first
I am the one who got mad with him
I am the one who shows my temper to him
So, it's normal for him to do that
He doesn't have the duty to do anything for me

And Jack, was trying hard to undo what he had done
Justin, Well, like always
Pretend nothing happen
But add another small bomb in the between
Great~!

Wonderful night

Should I get a Hamster?

Well, A friend of mine, he want to give away his hamster as his mother swear will kill those hamster if he didn't get rid of them
So sad






Should I get it?
Well, not that I am a hamster-person
I never actually really like it
But when I saw the hamster
Surprisingly it looks lovely to me
Not like last time when I really afraid

But
Can I afford?
not really
So.. what now?

A Journey of Finding Electronic Pet

Yesterday when I was taking my dinner and saw Arthur in MMU　Corner
I spotted one of his friend was playing Electronic Pet
It makes me feel like playing it
But when I ask where she bought it
She said from Jusco RM90 each
OMG~!
Damn expensive man~!
I know maybe that is original
I still remember of getting one causing around RM50 for my sister
And I didn't get myself one

That's the facts that I always give what my sister want
And won't want to spend any money on myself
Cause it just too expensive~!

I still remember when I was small
I saw my friends was playing it
I want to have one
But I don't have pocket money as every meal was prepared or brought by my father every rest time
Until I was secondary school
The thing no longer popular
So it's kinda hard to find it somehow

Until
When I in MMU foundation
I accidentally saw one in a grocery shop
I bought it immediately
And started to play
That time
Everybody was laughing at me
But I really never play before
So I kinda enjoy it

Too bad
It spoiled after few months
And I can't find it anymore

After yesterday
I saw it
And it burns my enthusiasm again
After final
I am going to get one for myself
I am going to find it
Of course a cheaper one
Not that expensive one





A journey to get Electronic Pet
Wish me Luck~!

Finally Online

Finally can online
It's actually because of the stupid modemn
haha
Finally

3 Down

Great~!
3 exam gone
Very tired
Memorizing and nervous for whole
Now relax myself
Played 4 round of games
Got 1 break record 165 rounds~!!
Yay~! Justin Lin I beat you~!

But now
I am really tired
And scare of course
Taxation will be the next subject
French Then FAR
FAR~~
OMITOFO~!

My scholarship can't afford for me to fail FAR
So I HAVE TO PASS
I had decided
Even I got C I still have to work for it
Cause I cannot fail
If I fail
I can't take CA
Means I have to extend my degree
And JPA won't allow it~!!!
So SO so so
GOD
Please let me PASS
I ask for C
I aim for B
So I will try my best for it
Please Please let me PASS

SO SO SO
LET ME PASS
I will work for the next semester
I will graduate with a CGPA of 3.8 at least ~~!!
I PROMISE

Auditing

Good morning guys
Today 3pm will be my auditing examination
Kinda worry somehow even I memorize almost everything
But the thing is "how am I suppose to implement it"
Great~!

Tips:
1. Internal Control
2. Companies Acts + Independence Audit
3. Purchasing/Sales/Inventory
4. Chapter 5
5. Before. during, after the inventory

Now, I have to refocus everything again
Not sure whether can I manage it
But I really hope I can
I going to make all subject above A
Just in case my FAR got any "incident"

Audit, please behave yourself ya
Let me get A then I won't complaint about you making me miserable anymore
Love you much much Auditing


Good Luck ~!

Scare + Stress + Worry + Nervous

Now it's 9.30pm
I just finished READ everything
Seriously
I don't even really memorize it
Everybody said I can
But I start to weaken down
I start to cry and giving up
I guess Jack also started to worry somehow

Well, I suddenly lack of self-esteem
I don't know why I am not that energetic like last time like saying
" I will finished memorizing 10 chapters tonight!"
ANd then I really did it
But not tonight
I don't know why

I am really really
stress out
Freak out
Scare
And damn worry

God~
Please let me calm down
For tomorrow and tonight as well

First paper - PWC

Well, I nearly got heartattack just now
I was focusing on Job Application Letter so hard until I almost forget the Business Letter
I just have a peek on it during the way back to MMU before the exam
For this, Special thanks to Lua Siok Ching and Tony Hang for reminding me

When I went into the exam hall
I quickly flip to the back
"Letter of Complaint"!!!!
!!!!!
OMG~!
I forget the format
I don't know actually
All I was thinking is "SHIT"!

Then I asked person beside me to make sure letter of complaint just as formal letter format
Then I turn behind to ask more
Until a lecturer come and ask me "any question?"
First time in my life
I just said "i was asking the lecturer's name" while her name already written there
Such a lousy lier

Well, overall
It's not really that bad until I don't know how to answer AT ALL
Just there won't me 100% confident to get A+/A
Hopefully I can get A at least
Worst please give me A-

Now having AIS revision
GOOD LUCK~!

Everybody Hurts

Don't know, don't know if I can do this on my own
Why do I have to leave you?
It seems I'm losing something deep inside of me
Hold on, hold onto me

Now I see, now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everybody hurts, everybody screams
Everybody feels this way and that's ok

Ladadadada that's OK

It feels like nothing really matters anymore
When I've gone you can't breathe
And you know I never meant to make you feel this way
This can't be happening to you

Now I see, now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everybody hurts, everybody screams
Everybody feels this way and that's ok

Ladadadada that's OK
Lalalala

So many questions, so much on my mind
So many answers I can't find
I wish that I could turn back the time
I wonder why

Everybody hurts some days
Everybody hurts some days

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everybody hurts, everybody screams
Everybody feels this way and that's ok

Ladadadada that's OK
Lalalalala that's OK

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everbody hurts some days
But we all feel OK
Everybody feels this way
But it'll be OK
Can somebody take me away
To a better place
Everybody feels this way
It's OK

It's OK, ladadada it's ok
Lalalala, it's OK

分手就能解决一切？？

I know it won't
It will hurt HIM
There will be scar in his heart

He asked:"Don't you wanna stay a little while?"
We danced a little while until the song finish
Well, I can feel something
I don't want to go
But Can I ?
I can't really
I can't stay on both side

Just like he mentioned
I am not tired because of being in love
I am tired because I need to care BOTH people
At the end
I would rather to ignore BOTH
It's true
I am really tired
No matter how or what I did
There is always somebody get hurt
Why not I choose to let go BOTH

I know break-up can't solve anything
But at least it can ease everything isn't it?
The main thing is let me really really really know WHO I really want to be with
It's not that I will certainly going to choose who
At least I have the space to think
I really need space

Sorry darling, I might not want to break-up
But I hurt you deep enough
I trying to do what I should do
I trying to stop doing what I am doing
But I need some space

I don't care who and what others thinks about me
Saying me a bitch or what
I will do it in my own way

Even we break-up
It's just awhile
Let me think for awhile
If you and me meant to be together
I will back
I promise
I will back IMMEDIATELY
I promise

PWC Revision

Tubo engine with PWC Revision
Have to
As I didn't even look at it before
Seriously

And now,
I have another student with me, Jack
He is much worst than me
Great
I have to prepare all the notes
And finally I done

Now, I just have to start study and memorizing
Good luck~!

4 hours of sleep

Great~! I can still manage to study and play games until now
Not bad
If tonight I can still hand on
Then I will Continue to study

Near Morning

The temperature starts to cold right now
Jack sleeps soundly
Wish I can sleep that nice

Who say alcohol can make people sleepy?
Well, it did
FOr awhile

Wish I can sleep now
It's late 4am in the morning

Mosquitoes bite me
Cold wind

Jack will be in Gym tomorrow morning
What should I cooked?
Fried rice?
Maybe just some simple can food - red bean
Should I get some green bean soup?
Maybe
Depends on when I wake up

La Nuit

It's 3.19am right now
Studying UBS Accounting
Blur
Confuse
Start to scare

Don't know why this semester didn't have the innovation to study
Guess I start to scare somehow

So, work hard
Good luck~!

Lunch Time!

After whole morning busy doing things
THen prepare lunch for Justin
To ease his unhappiness
First time he eat with us

Know what I cooked?


Toufu and meatball


port meatball~!


Not sure tasty or not
But worth to try
^^

Great! I'm Bleeding ~!!

Shit Man~!
You not going to do this to me NOW
SHIT ~~!

F***!

Shit !
I really don't know who you are?
You have the same surname with me
But why are you acting this?

You show that you care about me
Did you really ?????
You said I should have at least tell you
Will you listen ?
You said I should at least sms let you know
So that you can call back
Will you care?

WHen I chat with you
You busy chat with Others as well
And you better know who are THEY

Mad~!
Everytime you say you care
You show that YOu didn't care!

I am your sister
Will you at least care?!?!

All those guy that chase you
Are they so important??
You just fooling all of them somehow
You just want everybody to focus on you
Are they so important that you will willing to neglect your own SISTER??!!

Why is it like that EVERYTIME??
I can't even match any of those guys that flirt with you?!
You won everything
My friend
Daddy
Relatives
Everybody likes you more than I do
All I need is some attention from you
Can't you really do that ??

You get enough attention
Why Can't I have some little from you?
All I need is you care about me
That's all I ask
Nothing more

Tired

Wow, I think I should go write a novel about my love story
So that whenever people ask
I will just ask them to read it

Seriously
Listen to 2 people talking about my problems
Repeating the same stories like don't know how many times
Seems to be really really tired

Tired

But thanks for caring anyway
I love you all

Juin How

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
Well, please don't misunderstand me
I didn't really love him as "LOVE"
Just a love for a friend
A true friend

I am glad to have you as a friend
Even I used to bullied you EVERYDAY whenever I have the chance
Even I did like you before
I still happy to have you as a friend

Just like last time
You were there for me
You know how to comfort me
You know what I want
Except ONE
You gave me a sweet when I once cried in the tuition centre cause I got scold by my mum
Some more the sweet You gave I didn't like
BUt it's sweet

I might give you a bad impression now
I am so sorry

But I will settle it
I promise
I will take your advice

Thank you so much !

Rule

You can change as much love as you wan
but
please don't love 2 people at once

Sorry Juin How
I think I really make you very mad am I?

You gave me advice
You care about me so much
Thank you so much

It really helps
I really glad that I have a friend like you
Thanks a lot

I know what to do now
At least
I have a rough idea

It just most likely what I plan to do
Guess
You make my day better

Really thanks to you
You really ease me a lot
Even I made you so mad

I promise you
I won't come out with this kind of mess again
I will get out of it

I will settle this thing with you when I get back Penang
I will
You might throw things to me like what you mention
But
I know you care a lot of me
You always there for me
You were there when I really need help
You gave me advice
You gave me comfort
You called when I unhappy with ANYTHING
You called when I cried
You called when I mad
You were there all the time

Of course
You called me when you bored
You find me when you want to bully me
You find me when you got problem with your girlfriend
We chat at the wrong time
Sometime before your/my class
Even just a few mins
It's really funny
BUt
Thanks for always be with me

Thanks
I am so glad to have you as a Friend
And
SOrry for making you think that I am a jerk

Stalker

Well, Are you a stalker or what?
I never thought you were playing that kind of role somehow
By the way
He knew
So...
No comment

Then, He asked me
"Is Humour another Stalker?"
Well
Can I say no?

Well
Not sure what to response to all those "flower" lately
Hopefully everything will be fine

Not only people around me feel stress
Me myself feel tired as well

Hungry Vs Lazy

Who will win?

I am hungry now
BUt lazy to move
Want to sit there and study and online

So
WHo will win??

Kidding??

OF course is....





LAZY~!! =p

Balance

I am looking for some balance
Some solution
Can I really get answer?

Well, I missed him
I want to see him
I really do
But
I didn't because I don't want to hurt Jack
I don't want let him so difficult

But he seems like doesn't understand what I mean all these time
He wanted me to stop contact him
But even if I did
I still miss him

I know Jack is working really hard to get near me
But the nearer he tries to get, the further I get

I want to just break up with him
But I just can't
It's very cruel to him

But it's cruel to both of THEM as well
If continue like this
Both will kill me before I can slowly drown myself

Sometime I wish that I can just let go Jack
But there is something still prevent us from leaving
I don't know why
Like we already get used with each other

Sometime I want to be with him
But I am afraid
Really really really afraid
And I don't know what I am afraid of

Sometime I want to be just who I am
Single
Tough
But
It's obviously I am running from the main problem
Useless

Tell me now
What should I do?

There is no more balance between us
3 of us is out of balance

How to solve it?!
Seriously
I seeking for help

Everybody ask me don't let go Jack
He is like born to match me
He fits me just nice
Like nobody will
Seriously, I know
But, can we got through this?

Some of them ask me to follow my feelings
But is it right?
Will it end up a mistakes?

Fall In Love

I think I really fall in love
Can I stop it?
I know it's isn't right
What should I do now?

Food

My brain is thinking about food

Chocolate
Ice Cream
Seoul Garden
Sushi
Satay Celup
Coconut Milk Shake
BBQ
And many more

Guess what?
When I went to pasar malam
I want to eat fried mihun (so I bought it as my dinner)
But I end up thinking for a curry chicken
Then Laksa
Then "Carrot Cake"
Then "O jian"
Then Keropok
Seriously
I really really end up damn hungry on the way back

Found it

Just exact the feel I wanted

Illness

Damn~
What now?
Is it my health is having "red light" now?

Everyday sure not feeling well
Fever
Headache
Stomache
Now nausea?

Seriously
I need to go for a medical checkup after final

无事不登三宝殿

Seriously, it's really funny
WHen I want to find a English version of this phrase
Nobody knows
Then something comes out my brain (Which I know it will turns out to be a joke)
I got the translate
"Nothing does not goes to the temple"
haha~
Funny

Well, Seriously
A friend
Is it for purpose?

Seriously,
The person will actually finds you when she needs you
Especially when she wanted everything of your exam thing
Really unhappy

Why can't we just like last time?
Like a sister?

JEzz.. I miss that

PS: I did thought of putting "Nothing does not goes to the temple" as the tittle But it might turns out to be stupid, So I just ignore it.. lalalalala~~~

No theme

There is no suitable theme for this blog
As if it has no main reason for this
It's like Lost in the middle of the road

Used to use that blog to express my feeling
Special feelings
THere are meaning
BUt
Now, everything seems very confusing

That's why keep changing themes
WIsh to find a nice theme to settle down

魔羯座女 (Love it cause Damn Accurate!)

魔羯座女生不喜欢的恋爱花招
第三招：欲擒故纵
像巨蟹座、魔羯座的人，她已经很容易没有安全感了，又很保守，所以当你欲擒故纵的时候，他就会有一种消极的感觉，然後心想你可能对我不感兴趣吧！然後就打退堂鼓，魔羯座也类似如此。

如何讨好12星座女生

最喜欢有为有守的青年，所以你只须要表现出你认真去工作，就可以讨好他了，然后再把钱全部交给她处理，她会更爱你喔∼

魔羯座座女的爱情观
她们在外表上看来，多半是朴素的，但偶尔，也会看到几位穿着大胆，行为表现前卫的摩羯座女子．在土星守护下的摩羯座女子，绝少有轻易吐露心事的习惯，大体上来说,她是不怎麽乐观的．她不是不相信会有美好的未来，但是她肯定所有的未来必定要靠自己努力去奋斗！她没有依赖心,而且非常实际．摩羯座女子的爱情多数总要在一切有了保障的情况下产生．并不是说她一定要你家财万贯，但是你起码要有显而易见的光明前途．摩羯座女子的固执就如她的实际一样有名，想要改变她的观念，恐怕比登天还难呢！她们经常把每件事都看得太认真了！她们虽然多半都不是你敢轻易造次的女性，但也绝不是缺乏女性魅力的男人婆．她们脚踏实地的纍积自己的财富,社会地位以及生存能力．绝不浪费时间在幻想白马王子的出现．

魔羯座座女生喜欢的男生类型
要想追求魔羯座的女生，你的条件必须是：自信但谦虚的态度，体面优雅的外表。因为魔羯座女生重视外表，社会地位及影响力。她自己也是一个对工作有企图心的人。她们对两性的关系有长远的规划，注重“未来”，所以你的“潜力”远比你现在的成就及地位更重要。

魔羯座女能忍与不能忍

* 能容忍--有名无实的婚姻
* 无法容忍--另一半不思进取不求上进

魔羯女不太能接受婚姻破裂的感觉，离婚之后小孩怎麽办？好不容易习惯了一个人又要重头开始去习惯另一个人？这些对于魔羯女来说都是很头大的问题。不到迫不得已保守而又朴素的魔羯座是不会走到离婚这步，贤淑的她们会一忍再忍。但是对于力争上游的魔羯女来说，她们很不喜欢不思进取的或者颓靡的人。

Mooncake

Well, Honestly I might like to eat mooncake
But not outside mooncake
Way TOOOO sweet to me
That's the main reason

That's why I like to eat home-made
Cause Mum will specially made less sugar for me ^^

miss mummy's 公仔饼



Actually not my mum's
BUt it looks alike!
Coconut favour
And
Red bean favour

Jezz
Mooncake ~
公仔饼~

Moon Festival

This is a festival that normally people gather with their family
Guess I didn't eat mooncake made by my mum since foundation
Not sure I still remember how it taste like
Kinda miss it

When I miss them
I called them
But end up got scold
And it's really frustrated when it's not really my fault
What to do
I am a "big sister" in my family

starting from tomorrow
I will be a tough lady
Focus ONLY on study
I want to be
TO be better
TO be stronger
So that I won't get hurt easily

I really wish that
Sometime I can be strong and get everything done by myself

Just like what happen today
It's another huge success!!
I did take bus ALONE to MITC
Well, to normal people, it's abit childish
But to me
It's like dream comes true
As I never take bus Alone before

Even it's scary
Even it's not easy
Even it took me a fever as "compliment"
I learned something
Another plus point!

I've been well taken care by my parents since I was child
Never take bus alone
Never go anywhere alone
Never go home late
Never stay out late
Never got into rain
Never eat Ramlee burger
Never
Never
Never a lot of things
But I tried when I reached here

I learn to take care of myself
I learn to be tough
I learn to be independent

Until I met him

I started to rely on him
I started to be weak

I still remember
I said something like this before to him
"I will survive better without you"
But can I now?

There had been a serious crisis lately between me and him
I worried that I can't survive without him
I worried that I am not save without him
I can't life without him

But there is another HIM
It's like I relying on both of them

It's not fair to either one of them

That's why I want to be tough
To be who I am
To see clearly who I am
TO see clearly what I want
THen only I can choose

I might end up cold-hearted awhile
To protect myself

I might end up tougher and serious
Sometime funny
Just to make sure I get along with people
Just to make sure I am fine among people

I want to prove that I am good without anybody
Even my asthma
Even my illness
Even if I die one day
I won't regret of trying
I won't regret
At least I done what I want to do


After all, it's moon festival
should be happy
And I had a wonderful memories lately

Not sure whether it is good or bad
So I just have to let it be
Not really want to care that much now
Just want to follow my feelings
No more logic
Until exam finish
Until it's time to settle everything



Happy moon festival!

Couple Necklace

Which one nicer?





Guess this is the best huh? ^^

Shit~!!!

I taken my medication that I didn't take for a very long time
almost 2 years I think

Never thought I will even touch it
It's not a medication that can stop it
But I know it will strengthen the lungs
I took it for years since Standard 2
I try to prove that I am tough to not taking it
A bit childish

But I don't really think I am
For now
Jezz

I need air
Dizzy right now
Shit~~~!!

Hopefully I don't need to go for medical checkup
Damn~!
I hate being weak! or being a health trouble person!

Started to Worry - Why does it comes so OFTEN lately?

The symptoms of asthma vary greatly from person to person and from attack to attack for the same person. Your ability to recognize the early signs & symptoms that lead to an asthma attack is crucial in avoiding emergency room visits. When you notice these signs, you should start following your Asthma Action Plan.

Before a full-blown asthma attack, there are usually early signs and symptoms you can recognise. Irritation of the nose and throat, thirst, and the increased need to urinate are common symptoms that may occur before an asthma attack. Each person has his or her own particular pattern of early symptoms, which gradually progress to a severe difficulty in breathing if not properly treated. The checklist of symptoms contains a list of the early signs of asthma symptoms.

The classic symptoms of an actual attack are coughing, wheezing, and shortness of breath. Wheezing when breathing out is very common during an attack. Often the attack begins with wheezing and rapid breathing and, as it becomes more severe, all breathing muscles become visibly active.

Some people first experience chest tightness or pain. Chest pain occurs in about 75% of asthmatics; it can be very severe and its intensity is unrelated to the severity of the attack itself. The neck muscles may tense and talking may become difficult or impossible. The end of an attack is often marked by a cough that produces a thick, stringy mucus. After an initial acute attack, inflammation persists for days to weeks, often without symptoms. (The inflammation itself must still be treated, however, because it may causes relapse.)

The most common symptoms are:

Shortness of breath (dyspnea)
If you experience breathlessness after laughing or talking this could mean asthma. You may also find that you feel the need to breathe in before you have finished breathing out.

Wheeziness
This is the whistling sound sometimes heard when you breathe. It indicates airway narrowing. Please note that not all asthmatics wheeze and not all wheezing indicates asthma.

Exercise makes you breathless
If physical exertion (playing sport, walking up a flight of stairs etc.) makes you more breathless that it could be an indication of asthma.

Tight chested feeling
This sensation feels like a tight band across your chest - like an elastic band or a heavy weight resting on your chest.

Excessive mucus production
Gurgling or rattling and coughing up a lot of white frothy mucus is common. Sometimes it will be thick and yellow or green.

Cough
A recurring, irritating cough is frequently a sign of asthma. This persistent cough usually occurs in the cool air, at night or after exercise.

Chest pain
When air is trapped in the airways due to inflammation, the surrounding membrane stretches, and causes pain.

Nasal Problems
Nasal congestion and/or running nose is often an accompanying feature of asthma. Rhinitis is often called asthma of the nose.

Disturbed Sleep Patterns
Problems such as snoring or waking up numerous times during the night is a very common asthma symptom.

Lethargy
Feeling very tired is quite usual for asthmatics. It is often the result of broken sleep, diminished oxygen supply to the body and also the build up of lactic acid which tires the muscles.

http://www.buteyko.co.nz/asthma/attack/symptoms.cfm

6 out of 10
Shit~

Is it because of stress?
Like what happened in Standard 2?

Is it because of depression?
Like what happened THAT moment?

Is it because of tiredness like it always does?

Shit~
It shouldn't come that often in hot days
Started to worry

Not sure

Not really sure how I feel now
Feel like I don't want to stay at anybody's side now
Not Him (Well, I want abit but guess I just can't)
Not Jack

I don't have any feelings on him
No excitement
Nothing
Maybe like what he said
Responsibility and commitment

I don't feel much pain when he left
It's "sour"
I feel the uneasiness
I want to cry but it doesn't really come out
Just some tear around my eyes

It's like I switched off all my emotion button
Great~!
I slowly become the past-me
Is it hurt me that much?
I don't know
I am so calm
Jezz
I really looked like last time
Seems like it had been 2 years I didn't smile like that
And I did it a lot lately
I smile when I didn't mean to
I smile just to try to hide my uneasiness and unhappiness
Jezz
Me and Jack and HIM really hurt me that much
Damn ~!

Not sure what's going on
But I think I just let it be like this until I finish my exam
Just have to focus on exam right now

The worst
I guess there is nothing I can say
I will become a wonder woman back
Just like the past time

Sad

I lost my pearl necklace
Is it at the classroom?
I only realize when I in MITC
Really sad
haiz
Not only it's real and expensive
It is really nice as well
It's a black purple pearl



See how nice the colour is it?
Jezz
I miss it now
Regret of wearing it today
sob

Centre of Attention

I don't like to become an attention of the crowd!

Being in MITC
Well, I just wearing normal singlet and long pans
Why did people looking at me??!!
Damn it!

There is one white-shirt guy
I was looking at the huge board sign
He thought I was looking at him
He smile at me "evilly" like an uncle want to "cheat" small kids
SHIT !!

Then all the signal signal thing
To tell others to watch over
Seriously???!!!!!!!

Am I that weird?
Or am I so hideous?

Damn!
I don't like to be a centre of Attention
The only attention I want is people I care

But
Always
People that I care won't pay attention to me whenever my sister is around
AND people will pay attention to me when I don't want to
Haiz

When lighting struck

You will know that the lighting will struck
But you wouldn't know when the lighting will hit
You wouldn't know where the lighting will hit

You know that it will hurt if the lighting hit you
But you don't know how hurt is it

You know everything
But you can't actually know how it feels like
All you can do is to do preparation

But is that enough to let yourself get hurt?!
no
No
NO

It will hit
And when it hit you
You will feel the pain slowly until the extreme

The more you care, the more it hurts
THe more you love, the more it pains
THE longer you let go, the tougher will it be

I can't let go
I really can't
I know it's wrong
But I know the true answer inside my heart
Every of it

I love both of them
In different ways

I know the change of feelings towards both of them
I know
But I don't know what to choose

Everybody ask me to make decision myself
Everybody want me to make decision
But I don't know how!

You said I am the person letting you go
You said I am the person to make decision
But I really don't know

I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW
sincerely
Honestly

I just wish that there are somebody there to help me
I wish
I really do
And I really hope it will happen

When the lighting struck
People will see the lighting
But they won't see the person who struck by it
As nobody will know
Only the person will know
Only I will know

SWEAT!!!!!!!!

Jezzzzz...!!!
The same storyline!!!!!!!!!

The same day same time of last year
I am thinking the same thing!!
Facebook

OMG~~~~!!!!!

Last post
The same thing here!!!

OMG~~~~!!!!!

鄙视外表学会的男生

Advice

在您这一生，你最想要些什么东西。
你自己想想看，不要为了某种东西而影响您的人生。
您的选择将决定您的人生。
要好，要坏，就是看您自己。
想想看吧。

Advice from HIM

But the question is
"What I want NOW?"

Did I really change that much?

Really?
Did I really change the way I dressed since foundation?

Maybe
A little
But just a little

I am who I am NOW

Jezz
I don't see any difference anyway

But
Still
Nice to have you back
Never thought we can talk like this again after Foundation
^^

Sometime I hate guys

Am I so weird to you all ???
Seriously, Stop looking at me!

First, when I walked into McDonald
Before even entering
A guy saw me and talked something to another guy
WHen I walked in
I heard:"Aiyo, it's not pretty d la~"
Then he turned and looked at me
Then both of them started to talk and whispering

When I was sitting to "booked" place as there is so many people
Both of them stood up and looked at me
And whispering again
SERIOUSLY??!!!
Damn IT!!!


Then when I take bus home
When I come down from the bus
Many UTEM students waiting at the bus door
One of them
The hand
"Accidentally" knocked me
And go "UP"
F~!
Seriously !!!
I hate guys sometime
They are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo......
ARGH~!

Good night

Guess I still sleep after all
It's really late now

Everything around me is so quiet
Kinda creepy

Everybody is sleeping
So am I

Is he sleeping as well?
Hopefully

Good night then
Sweet dream

PC Fair

Starting from tomorrow
There will be a PC Fair at MITC
Jack is working there
So I can just ask him to help me buy something
Save me a ride there as well

But Siok Ching want to do
Should I follow?

Depends
If she ask

If I going alone?
hehe
No thanks
Bus will kill me half way
As I don't know which bus to take and where to stop

So sorry
As I seldom take bus
So
hehe
Don't be surprise about it

mayday mayday ~

Mayday mayday, I need massage now
Jezz
I am so tired
But I guess night suits me just nice to study
To calm myself as well

But I really need a massage now
The whole neck and shoulder area are so pain
Jezz
Is it because of sleeping on the living room?
Or study?

It's 2.10am
Should I sleep now?
Can I woke up tomorrow?
Or should I just stay awake until the subject registration finish?

But guess there is no point for me to sleep so early am I?

I want to make myself better

I want to make everybody feel better
I want to ask myself a favour

To let myself not to care you Too much
To prevent myself missing you Too much
To avoid myself thinking of you Too much

I wish I can do that
I not sure I can or not
But I really hope that I can do that
If not We will end up quarrel again
I can't afford to lost a friend like you
I just can't
I lost one before
Not this time

I will have to learn to protect everybody
I need to make myself better
So that nobody will get hurt again
Even myself

Every Time I Close My Eyes
It's been a long long time coming's
But I I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you

And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

I think that you're truly somethin'
And you're you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby it never rains and it's no wonder

The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you
And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughtta know
How much you mean to me
It's only right that you be in my life right here with me

And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

I can't afford to lost you as whoever you want to be

Nice night

Peace
Calm
Memories

Should be a nice night
Hopefully

Pray

Pray for a better day for tomorrow
Pray

Thought that today will be a very nice day
It started happily and warmly
But after a short nap
It starts to turn into disaster

There is a lot of thing happen lately
And almost everyday
It's like a huge test for me before the final exam
Can I survive?

Guess today is the most emotional day among so many days
WHy?
Not sure
Who cares anyway?
So, just ignore it

Today very frustrated as I can't register my subject!
Please let me register tomorrow
Please

MMU! Please let me register tomorrow!!

Bad Boy

你说的是我不想走
你说的是我不想走
你说的是我从来不放手
我不会问你为什么
你不用教我怎么做
我要抹上最鲜艳的口红 喔~
原来你是这种BAD BOY
难道我曾经默默纵容
难道是我 喔~

你说的唯一有很多
你说的专情像烟火
你其实骗了自己骗了我

我不想再挽回什么
你不必一再逼问我
我要找到最亮眼的自我 喔~

原来你是这种BAD BOY
难道我曾经默默纵容
这是你犯的错 喔~

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你的坏让我不明白

BAD BOY BAD BOY
我必须要离开

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你会让我太无奈

BAD BOY BAD BOY
让我对你说BYE-BYE

你说的是我太软弱
你说的是天的捉弄
你说的是我离不开优柔
我不能证明是与否
我也不想证明是与否
这不是我我分开的理由 喔~
原来你是这种BAD BOY

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你的坏让我不明白

BAD BOY BAD BOY
我必须要离开

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你的坏让我太无奈

BAD BOY BAD BOY
让我对你说BYE-BYE

BAD BOY BAD BOY
O~~ yeah~~

BAD BOY BAD BOY
我必须要离开

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你会让我太无奈

BAD BOY BAD BOY

让我对你说BYE-BYE
让我对你说BYE-BYE
让我对你说BYE-BYE

真实

你说的话 在我心中生了根
爱得很深 所以心很疼
记忆 在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问 对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉 另外一个人
我等 等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候 比较真
太多疑问 知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开 也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

太多疑问 知道答案又如何

有时候，人们之所以哭泣，并不是因为软弱，而是因为他们坚强了太久

有的时候

有的时候感觉到难过并不是因为做了什么，而是发现自己什么都做不了；
有的时候手足无措并不是因为没有选择，而是发现可以选择的太多；
有的时候放声大笑并不是因为开心至极，而是发现哭不出来;
有的时候上网并不是想说话，而是发现无人可以倾诉

It's not that you feel unhappy because you with another people
It's because I can't be there like her did

It's not that I am really calm and rational
It's because it's too pain for me
And I choose to ignore
But deeply inside I know how hurts it will cause me

Sometime
Things are just not what it seems to be
Sorry

Hungry + Sleepy

Guess Last Night really used up lots of my energy
Guess Last Night is another Fairy Tale huh?
BUt when times come, Cinderella back to reality
Hopefully after this everything will be ok between you and me

Still
I am HUngry!!!
And
Sleepy!!

Out of sudden

When I go back home
He woke up and saw me talking phone
No reaction from him

He thought that everything is fine
He kiss me when I was sleeping

Out of sudden
He really thinks that everything is fine
haizzzzz...

Seriously
What should I do ?

No feelings

Haizzzz...
He really thinks we back together le

Are we?
I don't know
Maybe

But some other things starts to bother me as well
Great!

黑漆漆的晚上有点小害怕
但是没办法
想找人聊天
但是能找谁??
大家都在考试时间

算了
自己靠自己吧

潇洒

对，我现在很潇洒
我是没事情

我可以很潇洒的开口说分手
我可以很潇洒的开口要求暂时分开
我可以很潇洒的告诉一个男孩我不能选择他

我是很潇洒
我可以装着没事

但是
心里面有什么样的感觉
过后就会感觉到的

昨晚一天
今晚不会有事
可能明晚
可能...
没人知道
不会想让人家知道

但是
决定了
就潇洒地放下吧~

现在说我发脾气

真的
好累好累

真的很想这样一个人自己在外面
哪里都好
只要离开这里
真的很想

说我发脾气了

我只是一事论事
你自己为什么喝酒
为了什么
你不知道吗？

你当我笨蛋啊？

很累~ 真的很累~
我并没有发脾气
只是我们之间需要冷静期

太累了

Tired

Everyday have things happen
Since when My life so exciting?

Last night one
Tonight one
Great!
Settle all together!

Now
Freedom

I just have to concentrate on my study

~be tough~

我不要

不要说做了那么多的小动作
然后让我已经不想要理会你的时候
再说对不起
想要挽留

既然那么辛苦
又何必呢？

勉强没有幸福
看见你这样
我都不想看

真的没那个必要
算了~

我买的红酒不是为了你心情不好而喝的
你有没有想过起码问过我可不可以喝？~~！

不明白

现在说我没有给你地位
什么东西啊？

你回来
我什么话都没有说

就因为我不在你指定的地方吃饭
我不想要你为我加饭
这就没有给你地位吗？

好啊~ 你现在既然那么辛苦
干脆点
我们算了
反正你也看不下去
那就算了~

我没有意见
我已经不想理了

好~ 那就算了~

那么消不到气是不是？
那么辛苦是不是？

那就不要再忍了
我和你就暂时分开吧~

那么辛苦
对大家都没有意思

那么委屈
对大家都是浪费时间

那么痛苦
对大家只是更辛苦

我们还是算了吧~

起码 不会那么难过

Great~! Another settle another comes!

Great!
Friends still "urging" me

Now boyfriend matter!
Shit!!
Seriously
I swear!
ONe day I will just throw away the football!

Did you mind to tell me that you going to football?!!!!!
YOu won't die
All you need to do is tell me!

You told me that you going to photostat
But you end up go football
Then I thought what happen to you
I cooked
I thought you went out awhile!!
Shit!
You know that I am hungry
And YOU told me that you want to eat earlier !
And everything is prepared
YOu went to FOOTBALL!!
Seriously
WHICH IS MORE IMPORTANT??!!!!



FOOTBALL FOOTBALL FOOTBALL!!
I HATE FOOTBALL

Cool DOWN

I need to cool down right now
I need to tell myself
Not to get mad
Stop my own temper

Cool down
Cool down

But CAN I?
Shit!!
Check Online application!
I am not the staff!
You can't expect me to know everything!
We all mmu student!
I found information through there as well
Can't you?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH??!!!!

Wondering Is It My Problem or WHAT?

Tomorrow is our subject registration day
But nobody seems to care
Everybody has their own excuses

"I am busy lately, you guys arrange then let me know, I am ok with it"
"I don't know o, you guys know le let me know"
"What is our subjects? I blur now"
Everybody keep on saying they busy and don't know
Seriously
Aren't everybody the same?
We have 24 hours just like others
We have to do revision like others
We ARE the same
So why I have to be responsible for your timetable??

Seriously
And can't I choose my own subject?
Why should I follow yours?
Seriously
Please being considerable
You can't make everybody follow as you wish like your boyfriend did
He is seriously perfect for you
I salute him In EVERYWAY
But I am not!
So, Don't expect me to listen everything you say
and put all my priority on you
Sorry
I have my own thinking, my own decision, my own future to take care of

Get use to it

Just have to get use with it

依然是朋友

哭过了
累过了
睡过了
都过了

看到了不想看到的
明白了不想明白的
不想过问
不想了解
知道自己没有资格过问

因为自己明白
没有机会了

因为自己知道
自己的心死了

那就
这样
放弃了把~

没有办法回头了

但是
依然是朋友
加油把~^^

才知道 有些感受 我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友 谁会有勇气去开口
不再哭 不再难过 我们还有好大好大的天空 Oh
故事的最后 我们都不曾失去过 什么
我们依然是朋友

I wish I am Tired Now

Guess I wish that I can sleep now
Maybe the food I taken is still digesting
Maybe I overused my energy today
Maybe I..

There are a lots of excuse
Which one you want?

I wish that I am tired now
Let it be the last dream
Last night
THe Last

Let the pain ease
Let the memorise fade
Let me forget



Let it be the last

Last Song

Veronica 'Ronnie' Miller: Why did you want me to see this?
Will Blakelee: Because I thought you would like her as much as I do, scars and all.

Steve Miller: Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love, but that doesn't make you love them any less. Sometimes it makes you love them more.

Steve Miller: [in letter to Ronnie] Love is fragile. And we're not always its best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can. And hope this fragile thing survives against all odds.

Kim: We're not perfect. Any of us. We make mistakes, we screw up but then we forgive and move forward

Be Happy

Be happy and Smile like I always did

It's still come out eventually

Nice song
Nice day
Nice night
Together with nice friends

It's still there
I can feel it
No matter how I pretend it

But
This is a great day!
Be happy!!

*smile*
笑一笑没什么大不了
:-)

What is done is done, no turn back

It's tougher than I thought
It's calmer than I thought

But what is done is done, there is turn back

There is no tears come out
Because we know what's the ending

All you can feel is what inside

It's really tougher than I thought
But I guess
I will be fine
Somehow
Eventually

Just a Kiss
lyin¡¯ here with you so close to me
it¡¯s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
caught up in this moment
caught up in your smile
i¡¯ve never opened up to anyone
so hard to hold back when i¡¯m holding you in my arms
we don¡¯t need to rush this
let¡¯s just take this slow
just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
just a touch in the fire burning so bright
and i don¡¯t want to mess this thing up
i don¡¯t want to push too far
just a shot in the dark that you just might
be the one i¡¯ve been waiting for my whole life
so baby i¡¯m alright, with just a kiss goodnight
i know that if we give this a little time
it will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
it¡¯s never felt so real, no it¡¯s never felt so right
just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
just a touch in the fire burning so bright
and i don¡¯t want to mess this thing up
i don¡¯t want to push too far
just a shot in the dark that you just might
be the one i¡¯ve been waiting for my whole life
so baby i¡¯m alright, with just a kiss goodnight
no i don¡¯t want to say goodnight
i know it¡¯s time to leave, but you¡¯ll be in my dreams
tonight
tonight
tonight
just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
just a touch in the fire burning so bright
and i don¡¯t want to mess this thing up
i don¡¯t want to push too far
just a shot in the dark that you just might
be the one i¡¯ve been waiting for my whole life
so baby i¡¯m alright, oh, let¡¯s do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
with a kiss goodnight
kiss goodnight

There will be the last night I sleep with your memories
There will be an End
So baby i will be alright, it's just like a kiss goodnight

Good night

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

I know it's time to leave, but you will be in my dreams tonight

Just A Kiss
here with you so close to me
it¡¯s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
caught up in this moment
caught up in your smile
i¡¯ve never opened up to anyone
so hard to hold back when i¡¯m holding you in my arms
we don¡¯t need to rush this
let¡¯s just take this slow
just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
just a touch in the fire burning so bright
and i don¡¯t want to mess this thing up
i don¡¯t want to push too far
just a shot in the dark that you just might
be the one i¡¯ve been waiting for my whole life
so baby i¡¯m alright, with just a kiss goodnight
i know that if we give this a little time
it will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
it¡¯s never felt so real, no it¡¯s never felt so right
just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
just a touch in the fire burning so bright
and i don¡¯t want to mess this thing up
i don¡¯t want to push too far
just a shot in the dark that you just might
be the one i¡¯ve been waiting for my whole life
so baby i¡¯m alright, with just a kiss goodnight
no i don¡¯t want to say goodnight
i know it¡¯s time to leave, but you¡¯ll be in my dreams
tonight
tonight
tonight
just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
just a touch in the fire burning so bright
and i don¡¯t want to mess this thing up
i don¡¯t want to push too far
just a shot in the dark that you just might
be the one i¡¯ve been waiting for my whole life
so baby i¡¯m alright, oh, let¡¯s do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
with a kiss goodnight
kiss goodnight

The End

Guess this is the End
You start doing what you planed to do
You start to let go

Guess this is a good thing for you
No matter what
I really wish and hope you happy all the time
And of course
We still friends
And you still my coach

Guess I still feel some hit inside
But I just have to keep that part of my heart
Deep inside where nobody will open
THe key of the holder is YOU
Guess this is it

There are one song for you
Really hope that If you really feel unhappy
Can always find me
I will always there listen to what you think

Thanks for being my Guardian for all this time
I know I am very "xing fu"
Thank
and Really sorry

Everytime I Close My Eyes
Girl it's been a long long time coming's
But I I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you
And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too
Girl I think that you're truly somethin'
And you're you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby it never rains and it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you
And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too
To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughtta know
How much you mean to me
It's only right that you be in my life right here with me
oh baby baby
And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too
Loves me too

There was a girl I used to know
She was oh so beautiful
But she's not here anymore
She had a college degree
Smart as anyone could be
She had so much to live for
But she fell in love
With the wrong kinda of man
He abused her love and treated her so bad
There was not enough education in her world
That could save the life of this little girl

How Come How Long
How come, how long
It's not right, it's so wrong
Do we let it just go on
Turn our backs and carry on
Wake up, for it's too late
Right now, we can't wait
She won't have a second try
Open up your hearts
As well as your eyes
She tried to give a cry for help
She even blamed things on herself
But no one came to her aid
Nothing was wrong as far as we could tell
That's why we'd like to tell ourselves
But not! It wasn't that way
So she fell in love
With the wrong kinda of man
And she paid with her life
For loving that man
So we can not ignore
We must look for the signs
And maybe next time we might save somebody's life
How come, how long
It's not right, it's so wrong
Do we let it just go on
Turn our backs and carry on
Wake up, for it's too late
Right now, we can't wait
She won't have a second try
Open up your hearts
As well as your eyes
I on occasion met that guy
Instantly feeling deep inside
Something about him wasn't right
The way he calls himself a man
By beating his woman with his hands
Oh I wish that she had seen the light
How can someone like this call himself a man (He's not a man)
Cuz in reality he's far more less than yeah
And we cannot ignore whenever we see the signs
Cause anykind of abuse god knows is a sign
How come, how long
It's not right, it's so wrong
Do we let it just go on
Turn our backs and carry on
Wake up, for it's too late
Right now, we can't wait
She won't have a second try
Open up your hearts
As well as your eyes

For you
Thanks for everything

Stress and Tired and Scare

Stress
Tired
Scare
Nervous
Not well prepared
NObody cares
But everybody want the best
Everybody is so good

Seriously
My group is really not good
and I really feel like I want to cry
I really want to
I feel like I doing everything by my own
Seriously

Please give me some strength to be there at night
Please give me the courages to continue this
Please

I really hope that somebody will understand me and really really give me comfort
Give me some warm
Lead me to a solution to this

I wish

Sometime
I wish that I have people to help me
I wish that my group members are helpful
I wish that they are capable
I wish that they are responsible
Yet
Everybody is thinking that I will be doing everything
So
They don't have to care
Seriously
I am tired!

I really want to give up
And
Honestly
I hate you
I say it out loud !
You selfish and stingy!
All you care is yourself
so Fuck off !
You not a friend of mine!
You not qualify to be one

Hungry

OMG~!
Dman hungry
Guess is because of skipping the breakfast
haiz~
Gtg
See ya~

Ohaiyo~

Bonjour!
Today seems to be great day
I hope

But today will be a very nervous day
DRAMA!!
Damn >.<"
Not yet done our practice!
Shit!
Song haven't Settle!
Stupid!
DIE~

Things to do today:
1. Get money
2. Practice drama
3. Settle 4 chapters of FAR
4. Settle Arthur
5. French Drama

Swt..
Still
I have to go pass today
So
Good luck!
Have a nice day!

他妈的！！

他妈的王八蛋！！！
没有用的家伙！！！　

Horror

Please don't let it be true
I really hope that's a simple guess
Please

You explain to me that he likes me
But I didn't sense it AT ALL

She mention that she realize long time ago
But I didn't even feel ANYTHING

He thinks he did everything is because he has feelings to me
But I didn't think that way AT ALL

Seriously
I can accept anybody likes me
But seriously
Not Him
Cause its really really OUT OF My Mind!
It can be actually turns out to be another horror movie to me

Please..


If really is a secret crush
I will really try to stay away from you
Cause I don't feel it that way
Seriously
Both of us is worst enough
I don't want end up killing you
I just being nice to be your listener and helper and a friend

My blog

Great! With one click my blog gone!
swt..
Really careless >.<"

Good morning

Its a really nice morning today
I woke up and its still raining
Really nice weather today

But no matter how much I slept I still tired
I wonder why
Last night I force myself to sleep
Due to the "time different"
I still following the Italy time

Somehow I need to do lots of things today
1. Photostat book
2. Booth duty
3. Kill Arthur
4. Kill Wee Pang (which I not yet sure why and how)
5. Drama Practice
6. STUDY~!!

Anyhow, the most important thing is
1. STOP Facebook-ing
2. STOP Drama-ing
3. STOP Music-ing

All I can do is
1. DOWNLOAD drama/movie
2. DOWNLOAD songs

NOTHING MORE!

Tired like hell

Its 4am in the morning
It took me 1 and a half hour to finish arranging the booth duty schedule and a monthly report
Seriously, I am damn tired by now

Justin had been very down lately
That's why I accompanied him today
He seems to be frustrated with his own girlfriend
But I guess he should be
Somehow, she is way toO OVER !
But still He needs us
So I guess I will be there for him Anytime

Guess I am not only physically tired
Haiz
Everybody is URGING me
Making the decision
Seriously
I HAVE NO IDEA
But I guess delaying is not the best solution
So..
I just feel like killing myself by now

Still I am so Great in the sense that I am dead
I am so dead cause I am so tired!
Damn.. the head is spinning