breathless and sorry

exams is getting nearer and nearer and as usual i getting nervous and nervous.. i am totally know nothing about this exam.. i feel like i am so useless.. like usual everyone is especting me to be good or rather should i say to be geniusly good.. OMG!! y? y can't i be the normal girl?!
"you must be really good ya.. you are the representative of our commerce class.. bla bla bla.."
"aiyo.. if you don't read you also can score well"
whatever.. i know myself.. i am not as confident as you all think i am.. i am really scare..
most of my friends keep asking me to teach them.. as usual i will but i am getting stress and stress.. unless i am fully concentrate on my studies or else it is not going to be better.. but my friends?? i can't just leave them.. i am so tired... sometime i just wish i am not good.. but i am who i am and i should getting along with it.. everything is going not so well these days.. i barely talk.. i don't want to talk to be actual.. and most of my friends are the victims i am so sorry.. i don't mean to be like that.. i hide away from them.. i want some peace.. i want to study.. that's who i am.. i am responsible with my result.. i havce to fight the score.. i can't just take it easy.. i am so srry.. i really am.. especially you.. i am so sorry for not talking to you... i am so sorry..
i want to help you guys but i can't go through myslef.. please don't mad at me.. i do what i think i am.. i am so sorry... friends.. exams... home.. misses... stress.. my god..
jshs friends.. where are you guys???!!!! help me here... i am breathless here.. i miss you guys.. i miss our exam with go through together.. i really am miss you guys..

starting to be busy

third week in MMU.. everything starting to be busy.. haix.. needless to say.. assignment, homework, study and everything.. haix.. i don't know why i getting tired and tired here.. haix.. i hope everything can be normal back but it won't haha.. university life.. haha..
For now what had made me happy is i finally can learn tennis!! haha.. daddy u wait me... i will be better than you are.. i finally can learn tennis without dad around.. haha.. I join MMU tennis club.. hurrayy!! but the only thing is i had to make new friends here.. not that i am a quite person but sometime making friends is kinda tired.. i really prefer friends that i know and can talk freely and so on.. haix.. i really miss my high school friends.. where ever you are.. please keep in touch with me ya.. haix..
now i getting tired and tired.. gastric some more.. starting to get headache or faint.. ZZZ.. i thought i am going to faint just now.. haix.. whatever it is.. all i can say is:" saturday and sunday will be your rest day.. stand the tiredness..."

guys.. take care ya..