Glad to have you back pal!
I thought we will be losing contacts but you surprise me
We chat and you mentioned about your girlfriend and how you guys manage
She is your first love
Also your first in everything
It suddenly reminds me of mine
Our first date
Our first hand holding
Our first kiss
Our first trip
Our very first of everything
of course, it's more towards mine
My first love
Yet, how much I missed it
The passion, the urge, the sweetness, the laughter, everything
I missed it
I do
If possible, I will want to go through it again
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Accompany
Heard the phrase of "accompany my girlfriend" after complaint how tired he was
I mean like seriously what a long phrase that I didn't heard for years
Honestly, I wish desperately that someone will did the similar things
That he knows that it's time to accompany girlfriend
Such a baby I am
I mean like seriously what a long phrase that I didn't heard for years
Honestly, I wish desperately that someone will did the similar things
That he knows that it's time to accompany girlfriend
Such a baby I am
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Forgive Me
Sorry that I lied
Please forgive me
I tried to be tough
I want to keep to myself
Nobody can save me from this
I chosen this
Knew
You know exactly where and when to show yourself
It seems like you knew something wrong with me
You tried to call me several times
I didn't pick up
Sorry
I lied
I am so sorry
It seems like you knew something wrong with me
You tried to call me several times
I didn't pick up
Sorry
I lied
I am so sorry
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Envy
I guess I am really envy when I saw it
I mean I am not envy cause he said that to her
Well, she is his girlfriend
It is nothing to envy of
Well, I am envy of her cause she got such boyfriend
So don't misunderstand me
He wished her Happy Anniversary
Honestly, it's really romantic and sweet
Not that I am unhappy
I am happy to them
Just that, I guess, I never been treated like that before
Well, you know....
The way he looked at her
The way he treated her
The way he protected her
I guess I am really really envy of her
She is lucky
Sometime I told myself that I am contented
But I really can't help myself
He told me about 18++ stuff
Honestly, it's not about my problem
Well, maybe partly is mine
But, it's just different for him and HIM
He never understand what I meant for the whole conversation
I mean, he understand
Just that he don't get the real reason of it
He knew the truth of all the lies
I guess he trying to make me feel better and awake of the facts
But I guess I am just too stubborn
I prefer what I am doing right now
I didn't write blogs or journals like for quiet some times
Cause I don't want people to bug me like
"What happen?", "What again?", "Now what?"
I feel save to be alone
I feel save to keep everything inside
At least I don't have to explain everything to anyone
I don't have to be response to anyone
Crying for 2 days is not nothing
It's something
Just, I really don't want to talk about it
Guess, my logic thinking is too strong
Cause I really like my world
I prefer my own dream world
Yes, I am envy
But I am contented
I mean, I can't wish more am I?
Then I will be a greedy person
Plus, it is too much for asking it
It's just a two different person
What can I ask more since I myself is a burden?
Well, nothing
Content is the word to ease my enviousness
I mean I am not envy cause he said that to her
Well, she is his girlfriend
It is nothing to envy of
Well, I am envy of her cause she got such boyfriend
So don't misunderstand me
He wished her Happy Anniversary
Honestly, it's really romantic and sweet
Not that I am unhappy
I am happy to them
Just that, I guess, I never been treated like that before
Well, you know....
The way he looked at her
The way he treated her
The way he protected her
I guess I am really really envy of her
She is lucky
Sometime I told myself that I am contented
But I really can't help myself
He told me about 18++ stuff
Honestly, it's not about my problem
Well, maybe partly is mine
But, it's just different for him and HIM
He never understand what I meant for the whole conversation
I mean, he understand
Just that he don't get the real reason of it
He knew the truth of all the lies
I guess he trying to make me feel better and awake of the facts
But I guess I am just too stubborn
I prefer what I am doing right now
I didn't write blogs or journals like for quiet some times
Cause I don't want people to bug me like
"What happen?", "What again?", "Now what?"
I feel save to be alone
I feel save to keep everything inside
At least I don't have to explain everything to anyone
I don't have to be response to anyone
Crying for 2 days is not nothing
It's something
Just, I really don't want to talk about it
Guess, my logic thinking is too strong
Cause I really like my world
I prefer my own dream world
Yes, I am envy
But I am contented
I mean, I can't wish more am I?
Then I will be a greedy person
Plus, it is too much for asking it
It's just a two different person
What can I ask more since I myself is a burden?
Well, nothing
Content is the word to ease my enviousness
Monday, January 14, 2013
Out of Sudden
Suddenly, I thought of Genting Trip with him
I wonder why
I felt like I missed it a lot
It is weird that this feeling just came to the thoughts during my studies
Guess it is 16th December 2012 until 17th December 2012
This is the first time both of us travel alone
Not with friends, not with clubs, not with family
But just two of us
It is one of my 21st birthday present
As I had been like so many years not going there
He tried to fulfil my wish on my 21st birthday
I was super excited yet stressful
The next week is the continuous 3 midterm papers
Honestly, I have the urge to cancel the trip
But I don't feel like missing the chance
So I almost finish all subjects before I went there
I promised myself that I am going to score this semester
So, to gain, you have to sacrifice
We took bus in the morning to Genting
2 luggage and 3 handbags
Almost 3 hours journey
Due to the reason of keep studying the days before the trip
I slept most of the time
But the only thing that worries me is I can't sleep on the "mountain" journey
Worst, I didn't bring any plastic bags
Seriously, I am worried I will throw up
Thank god, I didn't!
Not feeling comfortable but still manageable
The weather was super duper cold when we reached
We wondered around for like almost 1 hour to check-in
It was almost 2pm when we ate our lunch at Mary Brown
I chosen the best choice that he can be full and the cheapest combination
Told you I am a smart accountant
Lining up to buy tickets
We decided to buy the express ticket which cost more expensive
Yet, it was worth
We were treating like VIP
But everyone was envy and hate us when they saw us just walk in and take their queue
First one, the Pirate Ship
This time, I didn't choose the middle
We sat at almost the end
Honestly, my tears are out
He was laughing me and wonder why I was looking down all the time
Honestly, I am scared
I don't really like this kind of excitement
I used to ride these cause of my sister
Next one is the roller coaster
First time to ride roller coaster in Genting
Cause last time I wasn't tall and old enough to ride it
Again, CUT QUEUE!
And you know what's funny?
When I was heading to a seat while the normal ticket is choosing the same one
The people in charge stop the person and ask us to take the seat
Yeah, we are the VVIP
The girl glare at me
But, it is really not my fault
Then we were riding lot of games
Taking hot stuff during the rain
Getting lost in the play ground
And so on
Our whole day ride ends on 6pm
The only regret is, I didn't able to ride on the Dragon Ride which I love the most when I was child
Went back room and rest
And headed for Dinner
Then shopping
Then back to room again
We drank some wine and watched the movie named "The Christmas Kiss"
After that, we slept as we were so tired
Even though I wasn't feeling well and scared of being alone at night
I still slept eventually
The other morning woke up with "heart pain"
Then when we went shopping and wondering around again and again
Then we went to Casino
Not much interesting story there
We lost RM40
And learned about the bad of gamble
hahahahahaha
Until 4pm bus
We ride back to Melaka
The whole journey is sweet and relax and lovely
Wish to go there again
BUT
Due to health problem
I doesn't feel like going there anymore
I wonder why
I felt like I missed it a lot
It is weird that this feeling just came to the thoughts during my studies
Guess it is 16th December 2012 until 17th December 2012
This is the first time both of us travel alone
Not with friends, not with clubs, not with family
But just two of us
It is one of my 21st birthday present
As I had been like so many years not going there
He tried to fulfil my wish on my 21st birthday
I was super excited yet stressful
The next week is the continuous 3 midterm papers
Honestly, I have the urge to cancel the trip
But I don't feel like missing the chance
So I almost finish all subjects before I went there
I promised myself that I am going to score this semester
So, to gain, you have to sacrifice
We took bus in the morning to Genting
2 luggage and 3 handbags
Almost 3 hours journey
Due to the reason of keep studying the days before the trip
I slept most of the time
But the only thing that worries me is I can't sleep on the "mountain" journey
Worst, I didn't bring any plastic bags
Seriously, I am worried I will throw up
Thank god, I didn't!
Not feeling comfortable but still manageable
The weather was super duper cold when we reached
We wondered around for like almost 1 hour to check-in
It was almost 2pm when we ate our lunch at Mary Brown
I chosen the best choice that he can be full and the cheapest combination
Told you I am a smart accountant
Lining up to buy tickets
We decided to buy the express ticket which cost more expensive
Yet, it was worth
We were treating like VIP
But everyone was envy and hate us when they saw us just walk in and take their queue
First one, the Pirate Ship
This time, I didn't choose the middle
We sat at almost the end
Honestly, my tears are out
He was laughing me and wonder why I was looking down all the time
Honestly, I am scared
I don't really like this kind of excitement
I used to ride these cause of my sister
Next one is the roller coaster
First time to ride roller coaster in Genting
Cause last time I wasn't tall and old enough to ride it
Again, CUT QUEUE!
And you know what's funny?
When I was heading to a seat while the normal ticket is choosing the same one
The people in charge stop the person and ask us to take the seat
Yeah, we are the VVIP
The girl glare at me
But, it is really not my fault
Then we were riding lot of games
Taking hot stuff during the rain
Getting lost in the play ground
And so on
Our whole day ride ends on 6pm
The only regret is, I didn't able to ride on the Dragon Ride which I love the most when I was child
Went back room and rest
And headed for Dinner
Then shopping
Then back to room again
We drank some wine and watched the movie named "The Christmas Kiss"
After that, we slept as we were so tired
Even though I wasn't feeling well and scared of being alone at night
I still slept eventually
The other morning woke up with "heart pain"
Then when we went shopping and wondering around again and again
Then we went to Casino
Not much interesting story there
We lost RM40
And learned about the bad of gamble
hahahahahaha
Until 4pm bus
We ride back to Melaka
The whole journey is sweet and relax and lovely
Wish to go there again
BUT
Due to health problem
I doesn't feel like going there anymore
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