so that is it

that's what you said:"i better stay out of that, is none of my business anymore"
hmm.. nice to hear, hurt to feel

well, it had been a long time that i can't really let go of this relationship
it makes both of us kinda suffer,don't we?
like i don't want to let you go and you struggle to stay for me
i don't know why i want you to stay
is like i feel lots safer when i know you were there for me
but is kinda selfish of course
it hurts you a lot when i turn out to neglecting you again and again
giving you hope and letting you down again and again

so that is it
you and me
well of course we were still friends
the relationship among us all this time is not just simply friends
is sort of unknown and complicated
by me..
all me..
my fault again.. no doubt..

well, here's the song .. the first song that we finally get into the same "agreement" that you don't think that i am "old-fashion" or "outdated"
i still remember that moment
finally no criticism
and i am happy to be somebody that able to suit you somehow
i feel spark of glad deep down inside
i want to be your perfect person
but apparently i am not
so
here the song that i will always remember

and the guitar
i will never forget that there is somebody had ever loved me so much before
and i hurt him deep down inside his hurt
cause i never say
"i love you " "i miss you"

deep down.. i will always miss you dummy..
friends forever!! love you.. ^^

Love the way you lie
by: Rhianna
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that¡¯s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that¡¯s alright because I love the way you lie,love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I can¡¯t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it¡¯s a still night in my wind pipe
I can¡¯t breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it¡¯s like I¡¯m in flight
High off the law, drunk from my hate,
It¡¯s like I¡¯m huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I¡¯m about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going? I¡¯m leaving you
No you ain¡¯t. Come back we¡¯re running right back.
Here we go again
It¡¯s so insane cus when its going good its going great.
I¡¯m superman with the wind at his back
Shes Louis Lane but when its bad its awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whos that dude? I don¡¯t even know his name
I laid hands on him, I¡¯ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don¡¯t know my own strength
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that¡¯s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that¡¯s alright because I love the way you lie, love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you¡¯re with me
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit me
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them those chills you used to get me
Now you¡¯re getting fucking sick of looking at him
You swore you¡¯d never hit him; never do nothing to hurt him
Now you¡¯re in each other¡¯s face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push pull each other¡¯s hair, scratch claw hit him
Throw him down pin him
So lost in the moments when you¡¯re in them
It¡¯s a race that¡¯s the culprit controls your boat
So they say you¡¯re best to go your separate ways
Guess if they don¡¯t know you cus today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over it¡¯s a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don¡¯t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
I guess that¡¯s why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that¡¯s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that¡¯s alright because I love the way you lie,love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Now I know he said things hit things that we didn¡¯t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns same routine
But your temper¡¯s just as bad as mine is
You¡¯re the same as me
But when it comes to love you¡¯re just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn¡¯t you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship wasn¡¯t as crazy as it seemed
Maybe that¡¯s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don¡¯t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
I told you this is my fault
Look me in the eye ball
Next time I¡¯m pissed, I lay my fist at the drywall Next time.
There won¡¯t be no next time
I apologize even though I know its lies
I¡¯m tired of the games I just want her back
I know I¡¯m a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im¡¯a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that¡¯s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that¡¯s alright because I love the way you lie,love the way you lie
I love the way you lie