I am NOT a super woman

There are something happening in Prom Night event
Seriously, I didn't know what's wrong
But I really don't like it

What the hell
Who she think she is?
You just a girlfriend of the director
Don't think that you are so good

Really
Joseph told me about your story
So
Don't try to show off that you are good
Come one, you are not even reach my fingertips

Now everyone consider me as a bad guy
you have your wish
But I know I didn't do anything wrong

You can just ignore me just like what I am ignoring you
It is your lost
If you didn't trust me so be it

I use my sincerely and commitment to do this event
Like it or not
I am here
Not trying to fight with you
But just trying to save the event

Really, sometime I just wish that I can just say "Son of bitch, shut your mouth up!"
But I consider you as a friend
Not sure whether you are treating me one
But sometime it is really hard to be patient with you





Regarding tennis club
Honestly, after what I discuss with Yao Yi
I not sure whether should I stay there anymore

I am not close with the committees
I don't like playing tennis anymore
It makes me think of something that I wasn't want to think off
I have somebody that hates me in the club

I don't really want to go back there
I am not fit in without him

Honestly I don't know what's the purpose for me staying there
Looking and seeing somebody that hates me so much
Or worst somebody that you trying to forget and let go
Is not really a good idea

Honestly, I not sure what am I doing now
I am clearly not worth for anybody to fight for

Just like what others said
I am not good enough
I am just a rubbish where people think I am a diamond

What happen today
Honestly I forget
But I don't know why
People sound like it's my fault for not getting a partition and a table
I did booked that day after meeting
I didn't even delayed
FMD didn't have any tables and partitions
Not my fault!
I didn't own MMU
Why everyone like accusing me?

Maybe I shouldn't trying to be tough and promise them I will try to find one for them with other clubs
Sometime trying too hard just make myself in tough situation
Tennis club and prom night is just the same
People expecting you

But when you did one wrong
They blame you like you are just a useless person

I am just a stupid girl


I wonder why I am so down lately
I become really sensitive to what people said and what people do
Is it stress?


I am really not a super woman
I didn't plan for my life
I didn't choose what I been to
But really, I am kinda unhappy lately
I can't talk to anyone
share with anybody
Kinda sad isn't it?
Or should I say I am so stupid?

I exclude him from my favourite list
I keep my promise
I know he don't wish to see me or near close to me
Nor do I
I am not ready

I am not quite sure why I am not ready
Maybe I don't like making myself digging the big hole in the chest
I don't like to feel the pain
I don't even like to flash back

Whatever it is
I wish I can go home
With somebody loving me taking care of me

I miss them so much
I cried sometime in the middle of the night
Flashing back on how they taking care of me when I was sick or when I was exam

I am not a superwoman
I am just a girl that trying hard to prove that she is good
I just trying not to let people look down on me
I want to prove that I am worthwhile
I am a better person

At the end, I am not
I failed
I am really not a superwoman