mayday mayday ~

Mayday mayday, I need massage now
Jezz
I am so tired
But I guess night suits me just nice to study
To calm myself as well

But I really need a massage now
The whole neck and shoulder area are so pain
Jezz
Is it because of sleeping on the living room?
Or study?

It's 2.10am
Should I sleep now?
Can I woke up tomorrow?
Or should I just stay awake until the subject registration finish?

But guess there is no point for me to sleep so early am I?

I want to make myself better

I want to make everybody feel better
I want to ask myself a favour

To let myself not to care you Too much
To prevent myself missing you Too much
To avoid myself thinking of you Too much

I wish I can do that
I not sure I can or not
But I really hope that I can do that
If not We will end up quarrel again
I can't afford to lost a friend like you
I just can't
I lost one before
Not this time

I will have to learn to protect everybody
I need to make myself better
So that nobody will get hurt again
Even myself

Every Time I Close My Eyes
It's been a long long time coming's
But I I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you

And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

I think that you're truly somethin'
And you're you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby it never rains and it's no wonder

The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you
And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughtta know
How much you mean to me
It's only right that you be in my life right here with me

And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

I can't afford to lost you as whoever you want to be

Nice night

Peace
Calm
Memories

Should be a nice night
Hopefully

Pray

Pray for a better day for tomorrow
Pray

Thought that today will be a very nice day
It started happily and warmly
But after a short nap
It starts to turn into disaster

There is a lot of thing happen lately
And almost everyday
It's like a huge test for me before the final exam
Can I survive?

Guess today is the most emotional day among so many days
WHy?
Not sure
Who cares anyway?
So, just ignore it

Today very frustrated as I can't register my subject!
Please let me register tomorrow
Please

MMU! Please let me register tomorrow!!

Bad Boy

你说的是我不想走
你说的是我不想走
你说的是我从来不放手
我不会问你为什么
你不用教我怎么做
我要抹上最鲜艳的口红 喔~
原来你是这种BAD BOY
难道我曾经默默纵容
难道是我 喔~

你说的唯一有很多
你说的专情像烟火
你其实骗了自己骗了我

我不想再挽回什么
你不必一再逼问我
我要找到最亮眼的自我 喔~

原来你是这种BAD BOY
难道我曾经默默纵容
这是你犯的错 喔~

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你的坏让我不明白

BAD BOY BAD BOY
我必须要离开

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你会让我太无奈

BAD BOY BAD BOY
让我对你说BYE-BYE

你说的是我太软弱
你说的是天的捉弄
你说的是我离不开优柔
我不能证明是与否
我也不想证明是与否
这不是我我分开的理由 喔~
原来你是这种BAD BOY

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你的坏让我不明白

BAD BOY BAD BOY
我必须要离开

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你的坏让我太无奈

BAD BOY BAD BOY
让我对你说BYE-BYE

BAD BOY BAD BOY
O~~ yeah~~

BAD BOY BAD BOY
我必须要离开

BAD BOY BAD BOY
你会让我太无奈

BAD BOY BAD BOY

让我对你说BYE-BYE
让我对你说BYE-BYE
让我对你说BYE-BYE

真实

你说的话 在我心中生了根
爱得很深 所以心很疼
记忆 在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问 对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉 另外一个人
我等 等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候 比较真
太多疑问 知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开 也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

太多疑问 知道答案又如何

有时候，人们之所以哭泣，并不是因为软弱，而是因为他们坚强了太久

有的时候

有的时候感觉到难过并不是因为做了什么，而是发现自己什么都做不了；
有的时候手足无措并不是因为没有选择，而是发现可以选择的太多；
有的时候放声大笑并不是因为开心至极，而是发现哭不出来;
有的时候上网并不是想说话，而是发现无人可以倾诉

It's not that you feel unhappy because you with another people
It's because I can't be there like her did

It's not that I am really calm and rational
It's because it's too pain for me
And I choose to ignore
But deeply inside I know how hurts it will cause me

Sometime
Things are just not what it seems to be
Sorry

Hungry + Sleepy

Guess Last Night really used up lots of my energy
Guess Last Night is another Fairy Tale huh?
BUt when times come, Cinderella back to reality
Hopefully after this everything will be ok between you and me

Still
I am HUngry!!!
And
Sleepy!!

Out of sudden

When I go back home
He woke up and saw me talking phone
No reaction from him

He thought that everything is fine
He kiss me when I was sleeping

Out of sudden
He really thinks that everything is fine
haizzzzz...

Seriously
What should I do ?

No feelings

Haizzzz...
He really thinks we back together le

Are we?
I don't know
Maybe

But some other things starts to bother me as well
Great!

黑漆漆的晚上有点小害怕
但是没办法
想找人聊天
但是能找谁??
大家都在考试时间

算了
自己靠自己吧

潇洒

对，我现在很潇洒
我是没事情

我可以很潇洒的开口说分手
我可以很潇洒的开口要求暂时分开
我可以很潇洒的告诉一个男孩我不能选择他

我是很潇洒
我可以装着没事

但是
心里面有什么样的感觉
过后就会感觉到的

昨晚一天
今晚不会有事
可能明晚
可能...
没人知道
不会想让人家知道

但是
决定了
就潇洒地放下吧~

现在说我发脾气

真的
好累好累

真的很想这样一个人自己在外面
哪里都好
只要离开这里
真的很想

说我发脾气了

我只是一事论事
你自己为什么喝酒
为了什么
你不知道吗？

你当我笨蛋啊？

很累~ 真的很累~
我并没有发脾气
只是我们之间需要冷静期

太累了

Tired

Everyday have things happen
Since when My life so exciting?

Last night one
Tonight one
Great!
Settle all together!

Now
Freedom

I just have to concentrate on my study

~be tough~

我不要

不要说做了那么多的小动作
然后让我已经不想要理会你的时候
再说对不起
想要挽留

既然那么辛苦
又何必呢？

勉强没有幸福
看见你这样
我都不想看

真的没那个必要
算了~

我买的红酒不是为了你心情不好而喝的
你有没有想过起码问过我可不可以喝？~~！

不明白

现在说我没有给你地位
什么东西啊？

你回来
我什么话都没有说

就因为我不在你指定的地方吃饭
我不想要你为我加饭
这就没有给你地位吗？

好啊~ 你现在既然那么辛苦
干脆点
我们算了
反正你也看不下去
那就算了~

我没有意见
我已经不想理了

好~ 那就算了~

那么消不到气是不是？
那么辛苦是不是？

那就不要再忍了
我和你就暂时分开吧~

那么辛苦
对大家都没有意思

那么委屈
对大家都是浪费时间

那么痛苦
对大家只是更辛苦

我们还是算了吧~

起码 不会那么难过

Great~! Another settle another comes!

Great!
Friends still "urging" me

Now boyfriend matter!
Shit!!
Seriously
I swear!
ONe day I will just throw away the football!

Did you mind to tell me that you going to football?!!!!!
YOu won't die
All you need to do is tell me!

You told me that you going to photostat
But you end up go football
Then I thought what happen to you
I cooked
I thought you went out awhile!!
Shit!
You know that I am hungry
And YOU told me that you want to eat earlier !
And everything is prepared
YOu went to FOOTBALL!!
Seriously
WHICH IS MORE IMPORTANT??!!!!



FOOTBALL FOOTBALL FOOTBALL!!
I HATE FOOTBALL

Cool DOWN

I need to cool down right now
I need to tell myself
Not to get mad
Stop my own temper

Cool down
Cool down

But CAN I?
Shit!!
Check Online application!
I am not the staff!
You can't expect me to know everything!
We all mmu student!
I found information through there as well
Can't you?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH??!!!!