Kolej Matriculation Negeri Sembilan (KMNS)

this is my kolej.. Kolej Matriculation Negeri Sembilan.. big enough to kill all of us.. haha.. my hostel is on the hill which is the farthest hostel in the college.. haha.. i have to walk at least 10 minutes whenever i want to go to kuliah, tutorial, library.. my god.. good excersice.. haix.. then the food there is really my god.. all karry, fried, and spicy.. i wonder how they can survive.. haix.. most of us constipation the first few days we are there.. haix.. cause there had no fruits there.. my god.. and my stomach is sooooo wierd when i am there.. gastric and so uncomfortable..

Block B - Boys Hostel

Cafeteria B


see the long road?! haix...


want to see my room? haha.. not really nice and really really old.. haix..

my bed


my cupboard




my study table

two weeks in KMNS.. the first week is totally a disastous.. my godness.. everything rushing here and there.. we all like the victim of the earth quake or something.. my godness.. no time enough time to eat and bath.. just imagine that half hour to bath and eat and included 10 minutes to walk to our hostell... and everyone want to eat and bath at the same time.. haix.. everything is like snatch snatch snatch rush rush rush rush like crazy.. Orentation week is so tired cause we all only sleep for 4 hours only everyday.. every morning the malays praying we had to go listen to the talk.. every morning is like the body is there but the soul is no where else.. my god.. everyone is like dat.. haix.. then waiting waiting when they praying.. waste of time.. see all these picture..? waste of time!!














everyday activities is more or less like that.. the last day is a really happy day cause no more victim-life-style.. that night is really !@#$.. one malay girl cry and say with mike in front of the VVIP say that us Chinese always stay together and they can't make friends with us..! my god!! just three day we been there of couse we stay with our friends.. my god.. they are so selfish.. haix.. even like that.. we all is so care about each other.. haha.. we all always care back to back among us and we alwyas stay happy..











after one week of tourture.. another week had started.. our classes started.. wow.. i remember the moment i saw it.. i nearly vomit blood.. my class is from 8am till 4pm sometime i till 5pm straight.. my god!! but i am lucky that i am the same class with jooi ying.. and me, sin yen, jooi ying and hui ming always togehter even though we are not same block.. haa.. at least we are really nice to each other.. ^^

talking about my roomate.. three of them so nice to me.. haha.. they threat me like a child.. i always run here and there and when they can't find me.. they will start looking for me like i am missing.. my god.. they are really nice.. but one of them like to borrow things from me.. bad habits.. that's why i locked everything in my cupboard.. haha.. and they like to eat supper.. my god.. so unhealty.. ZZZ.. my roomate is Ayun, Atin and Fana.. haha.. we all are the AJK of the block.. haha.. their fault for voting my name out.. jezz.. i never especting this!! haix.. my god..!!



the first week of study.. all i can say is WOW!! one hour one chapter.. lectural are sooooo...haix.. i miss all my teacher in JIT SIN and my friends too!! they are so nice and so clever compare to what is here.. haix.. i can say we all are so naif compare to my malay classmate.. they like to "use" us chinese student cause they are really really no basic.. haix..
talking about classmate.. to be honest.. i hate malay boys!!!! they are sooooo !@#$%^.. they like never seen girl in their life.. urgh... i hate them.. one of my clssmate is really really !@#$%... all i can say is "help wanted".. i really hope he can stop bugging me arond!!!!!! haix.. that's all i can say cause there is too much to say and to write.. and i am so lazy.. haha..
i am back this week because of my sister birthday.. long journey to reach home.. so it is going to be the same when we going back to KMNS.. 8 hours.. haix.. may god let us have a save and happy journey in KMNS..
in short, i miss my friends a lot!!

then we going out to Kuala Pilah cause we don't go home last week.. we go out just to buy something that we don't have.. especially fruits.. of course, we also try to go praying in the temple.. the temple is hundreds years old.. haha..






we also went to eat Chinese dinner there.. even though it is not as nice as here.. but it is enough for that time cause the food in the campus is soo... wordless.. haha..

group of us eating.. kakaz..

our dinner..

decision i had make

the decision i had make about JPA scholarship and matriculation.. i understand that everyone said that i am weird to do this and make myself difficult but this is what my parents do the best for me.. i went to matriculation negeri sembilan to study for one week.. today i came back is for my sister.. she birthday today.. one week there is a totally new experience.. i went to matriculation doesn't mean that i gave up the JPA schlarship.. i still waiting for the offer letter.. all the matter is the college they offer for me.. if they offer a "useless" college, of couse i will stay in matriculation and it doesn't bother me at all.. i won't feel any waste... that the decision i make for now.. i will still try my best to maintain a good result and good spirit when i still there.. cause that is my duty to make myself get used to the environment there.. JPA or not it doesn't matter.. i made my decision and i will be patient to wait..
i really hoope that everyone is there for me and my parents too...

i am goin to cry and tired to death

Nombor MyKad 911222075102
Nama Penuh ANG CHOON THENG
Kursus PERAKAUNAN
Negara MALAYSIA
Status BERJAYA IPTS
Jawapan TIADA MAKLUMAT


Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam (JPA) telah mempertimbangkan dengan saksama permohonan saudara/saudari
untuk mendapatkan Biasiswa Persekutuan bagi melanjutkan pengajian ke luar negara di bawah Program Ijazah
Luar Negara (PILN) 2009. Berikutan bilangan tempat yang terhad berbanding bilangan calon cemerlang yang
memohon, JPA tidak dapat menawarkan penajaan kepada saudara/saudari untuk pengajian ke luar negara.

Walaubagaimanapun JPA bersetuju untuk menawarkan biasiswa kepada saudara/saudari untuk melanjutkan
pengajian di peringkat Persediaan/Foundation di bawah Institusi Pengajian Tinggi Swasta yang akan ditetapkan
oleh JPA.

Surat tawaran rasmi akan dihantar kepada saudara/saudari melalui pos setelah jabatan ini mendapat pengesahan
penerimaan tawaran daripada saudara/saudari.

Sila klik butang 'Terima Tawaran' sekiranya saudara / saudari menerima tawaran atau klik pada butang
'Tolak Tawaran' sekiranya saudara / saudari menolak tawaran. Sila sahkan penerimaan / penolakan
sebelum 11 Mei 2009.

people used to be happy about JPA and why am i so tired and sad aobut it?! damm!! everyone's information keep freaking my mum up!! and she keep on and on to bother me.. i am goin to cry.. i am so tired..

what should i do? go matric or JPA? what if i can't manage and get result in the foundation?! half way.. then how?! duh!! should i go tomorrow?!

8/5/2009 another wonderful day

hmm.. i gues i can say that it is another wonderful day before i go to negeri sembilan.. i hang out with sister, him and hui ming.. haha.. it is sort of weird but we did have fun.. hehe.. sort of a crazy bunch there.. haha..

Hui Ming fetch us go there and we nearly crash into accident during the journey but it is lucky that we are fine.. haha.. but i can't say that to her car.. her car had crash a little bit and that bother her alots cause she worry about what her father would say.. then we started the shopping.. well.. actually it had not been lots of shopping there cause we all had the same purpose - mother's day present.. which is totally easy for our mum cause we know what to buy her - a wine.. and for hui ming.. i can't say her mum is a lucky woman or hui ming is an unlukcky daughter.. her mum have everything and she don't know what to buy for her.. we walk and walk all day still can't find anything that her mum don't have.. haix.. so she still don't buy anyting for her mother YET.. poor girl.. want to see my mothers day present? haha..


then we went to watch movie.. since it is Friday noon and the movie had been played for very long time ago.. so it don't have so many people in the cinema.. we sat at the couple sit.. haha.. it is so funny that we had to sit beside sister's couple sit.. haha.. we din even want to look at them same as they don't want to look at us.. but it had sometime that when i want to call her i hid his hand.. urgh.. so ashamed.. ZZZ... after watching the movie.. we wanted to play boling.. but it scared me a little bit cause i never play before and i am going to be embarrased myself in the room.. lucky to me i can say that there are no more "space" for us and we had to wait.. haha.. so we turn out to play ding ding.. my old favourite entertainment center.. haha..

it is really reallly long time i don't be there.. haha.. we raced car which is my favourite game.. hehe.. because i had been sooooo long for not been played so i look little clumsy.. haha. but not with a miss bigger and beside me.. haha.. she is realy suck.. wahahahaha.. i can wait for her in the middle of the game.. kakakkazzz.. hahah.. in a little short word.. she lose and i beat her easily and badly.. haha.. but i am not going to say that to hui ming.. cause she is good.. haha.. half fight.. hehe.. then we play drum.. haha.. it is so funny.. we hid it togther in one game of course it is going to be perfect.. haha.. not bad.. and we hid it seriously hard.. haha.. he said:" there are only two possibility.. either all of you had so long don't play and every high or you all really frustrated and need somthing to hit of.." haha.. he is so funny.. he looked us play like crazxy monkey there helplessly.. haha.. all his job is to take care our bag and take the token areound with us.. haha.. nice~~..hehe.. we played basketball too!! haha.. we did scored good.. haha... not bad to me.. haha.. it is fun and tird and hot and sweaty.. haha..


because of our craziness.. we went home late and traffic jams and i had to rush to prepare for dinner BEFORE mum come back.. it is really tired.. haha.. rush like crazy maniac.. haha.. but it worth it.. haha..

everything is so happy and perfect until mum home.. her car hmm.. what can i say.. need to be repair badly.. haix.. she in bad mood and dad too.. urgh.. ruin everthing.. haix.. whatever.. i am very tired to bother those two maniac.. haix.. do whatever they like i don't care.. cause i am happy enough..

i went to bed eearly that night.. haha.. no doubt i sleep like a pig.. haha.. no more nightmares tonight i can say that.. and i am glad.. cause i must be really exshouted.. haha.. soon.. it is time to go.. this will be one of my sweet meemories.. lobve you.. ^^

another day

one more day closer to 11th.. haix.. suddenly i am worry and sad.. sad about thing around here.. my family, my friends and everything here in bukit mertajam.. i will miss them..

what did i did today? let see.. i watch tv as usual and nothing much for me to do.. then i sang.. haha.. in my house.. with my sister since i promise someone i will record my singing for them when i left.. i try to keep my promise but i wasn't fond with this idea.. haha.. cause i am seriously not good in singing.. haha. but singing with sister.. haha.. it had beeen a very very long time since we all so busy for our studies.. haix.. today we duet.. haha.. i nearly lost my voice.. kakaz.. but at least we had fun.. at least.. that's i can garantee about.. haha..

tomorrow i will going out with my sister again for the last time and i really hope it is going to be fun.. even i am so worry you will come here and meet me.. i am soo worry.. you live so far.. i know you want come down to accompany me and see me for the last time.. but i seriously don't want you get tired even half of my heart want you to come down.. but i don't want to be that selfish.. i will be fine.. don't worry.. but if you don't mind.. take care yourself.. you promise so keep your word.. you will always in my heart and mind don't worry and i won't forget you.. haha.. i am sure about it..

almost a perfect day

today 6/5/2009 is almost a perfect day to me.. to be actual it is the happiest day among the these few months.. maybe is because of you.. you came.. i don't know whether you came and talk with me in purpose or what.. but at least you stop by.. before i left.. to make me feel like you and me stil bonding and we stil in touch.. even not much but it is enough to make me happy all day.. i love you is all i can say and thank you..

i went to school today to sign the form thing.. and as usual both of them sneak out dating.. haix.. and i had to cover for them.. haix.. i wonder this can be stopped? it is so funny.. haha.. they almost got caught if they come back just a little late.. kaka.. lucky for them that my dad's eye sight wasn't that good anymore.. haha.. maybe they did pray that day..

today seems sooo perfect untill some idoit destroy all the joy.. urgh.. that stupid idiot..!! maybe is not their fault.. is my fault for not being lovely enough to ask them out.. haix.. everyone just put me aeroplane.. they said they are going and now it turn to be nothing.. urgh.. fine.. i will go out with my sister alone.. haix..

even though i am soo tired when i get home but you came.. you make today my day.. thanks.. i can't tell you how happy i am when you did stay and talk with me.. it mean alots to me.. really.. maybe for the last time.. but it is enought to make me happy.. maybe i am not close like we did, you din ask me out or have the same ring or whatever.. at least you drop by.. that is enough.. it means you never forget me.. thanks..

today is almost a perfect day to me that mum din scold me and dad too.. nobody make me frustrated.. and so far my mood is good untill those stupid idiot make me almost cry.. haix.. it is so unfair!! urgh.. nevermind.. i still have my sister to care about me..

4/5/2009

what a day.. just a morning enough to drive me insane.. thanks to our beloved government.. haha.. actually i don't know whether it is their fault or mine.. haha..

i went to BSN to open ATM account for my matric thing with Mei Fang and Ying Ting.. and to our horror, we can't open the account cause our IC's micro chip have some problems.. so we had to drive ourselves to the TMB perndaftaran to make a new IC and get the temperarly IC.. RM10 for the charges!! my godness.. RM10!! and the problems started.. Mei Fang finger print has some problems.. and she can't get the temperaly IC.. she had to go to Geogetown to sah the damm paper AFTER three days.. then she can only use that for the account.. my godness.. she is so unhappy and nearly had a fight with her sister.. i really worry about her at that time.. then we drove the the Buktit Mertajam BSN to try our luck see whether she can make an account today.. but no luck and i had my account and she had to wait.. poor girl.. haix..

After that we went to pharmacy to buy medicine.. well.. she has almost the same illness that i have but she bring many things there while i am really little.. haix.. suddenly think that i am going to ask my mother again to make sure of it.. haix.. today turn out to be really tired morning for rushing here and there.. haix.. and dad is not here and sister went to friend's house. haix.. left me alone.. haix..

i realy have to thank mei fang for fetching me here and there to do this things.. thank.. ^^

2/5/2009

2/5/2009 Kadet Bomba dan Penyelamat Mesyuarat Agung.. It might be the last time i am going to be involve in the Bomba activities again cause i am going to study soon.. haix.. some of friends are there but we din really talk much.. to be honest, it is really boring cause all the voting thing.. haix.. so waste of time.. and when the moment for playing games.. my dad come and fetch me!! urgh.. i ask him to fetch me at 11sth but he came at 10sth.. haix.. wordless..

new KBP comitte new start and another ending for the old commitee.. time pass very fast and it won't wait for us.. haix..

i'm tired

i am really tired.. haix.. i wonder why.. ZZZ.. i have nothing do at home.. but i am really mentally and physically tired.. tomorrow i am going back to school again.. haix.. early in the morning.. long jeans and t-shirt.. haix.. i am so lucky that i don't have to drive to school.. sister friend is coming to fetch us go.. haha.. that is nice and not so tired.. haha..

i can't wait to see most of my friends for the last last last time before we all go to matriculation.. and i wonder when are we going to see eaach other again.. so i really hope they will be there.. i really really really miss them.. i am.. haix..

i love you all.. mauxk..

I'm afraid

the closer the date to 11th the more i afraid.. i don't know why.. well.. i don't show it out in front of my family so that they won't get so worry while they already worry sick about the idea i being so far and without them around me.. haix.. i wonder since when they will realise that i can take care of myself.. haix.. i guess this is not going to happend.. so sad..

why am i so afraid of the unknown? i thought i am strong enough to know about the unknown cause i always go to the unknown place.. well.. sort of.. the difference is i always with my family when i went to unknown places.. which mean i am more secure.. and being there alone with friends wasn't reeally a bad idea though..

I don't want to deny that i am afraid of the unknown.. and the unknown is so mystery.. haha.. i am more afraid that i can't catch up the study more than the environment that i am going to cause i know i will going to be fine.. i am really really worry about my studies.. i wonder how my sister can manage it so well? what if i don't know a single thing the teacher is talking? what if i can't catch up and fell behind? what if.. haix.. and everyone (well, not everyone.. haha.. just 2 friends) said that i am completely ubsurd about it.. and promise that i will catch up.. and they don't doubt it at all that i am going to have any problems in study.. but to be honest, i AM worry.. my mum said she is worry about my studies too.. she said my english is really bad.. and she worry i can't catch up.. all of her words make me shaken worst than the day before i went to the JPA interview..

everyone have their own thing to worry.. while i am worry about the study things.. there are lots of bunch of friends are really really really nervous about it.. well.. i can't laugh at them cause they want to do everything right.. that's why they kept throwing lots of quetions to me.. haha.. i can't blame them and i always happy to help.. hhaa.. don't worry about offend me.. but somehow.. something i really don't know.. please don't question me like i am the god or the senior who had been there before.. i really don't know.. cause i never been there before and certainly don't know how is the studies run... even my sister is a senior, i don't ask many questions about matricualtion cause i don't really want to know.. i know i will be fine and that's why i don't ask... and please don't be mad at me while i don't want to ask my sister.. cause she has her own temper to manage.. and please please don't throw me to the sharks.. hehe.. i still want to live.. hehe..

afraid about something seems to be a good start.. haha.. and that's why i am so excited about the unknown.. i feel kinda chalange to be awway from my family and move on in the unknown future.. that's why i have the feeling that all of us is going to be alright.. and i confident to the unknown world.. and i am going to be tough for myself and be good enough for the unknown..
"i will be fine, don't worry" i always say to myself..

should i even bother?

why am i still bother about you?
why am i still care about you?

i hate myself.. i can't believe this is happening to me.. i know i shouldn't think that way.. and i thought i don't even think that way again.. and why is this still so annoying me?!!

haix.. i wonder when you will just tel me the truth.. since when you will just let me feel that you already let me go.. and since when am i going to think you are no longer in my life?

i wish if i go to study soon.. i can forget you.. and we can be a true friend again.. few more weeks is the day you and i starts to be friend last year.. did you still remember? i wonder always curious why did you act like that i talk to me.. haha.. it bother me sometime and i still din't have answear for that.. haha.. but one year.. you and me is a friend.. i think we can stil be.. if i try.. haha..

all i can say.. i don't deny the existence of you.. and i don't deny that i bother about you and cares about you.. but i am trying hard.. and so do you.. i know..
good luck and all the best for your study.. goodbye..

preparation to leave soon

i am going to study in negeri sembilan at 11th May... and after i been there.. i am not going to come back in this short time.. which mean i had to bring many things there and i am going to miss everyone.. hahaa..
since many of my friends is going to the same matriculation.. so i am not worry that i don't have any partners.. haha.. and i am still worry about the transportation to there.. however.. the very important thing is i need to buy lots of things.. clothes bla bla bla.. things to use.. haix.. and it is going to be a long list.. haix..
so.. guys.. i am going to leave soon.. and i hope we can hang out agian for the last time before i go.. and take care all the time.. all the best... ^^

it is not that bad as i thought

haha.. driving alone wasn't that bad like i was thinking.. yet.. sometime it is tired but it is worth it, i guess for me.. haha.. i don't know about anybody.. but i guess i am happy for now.. haha..

dad kept let me drive to make sure i am steady enough to drive.. haha.. he is sort of "training" me.. hhaa.. but i don't mind... hhaa.. and today.. he let me drive alone to the shop for "improvement" of the car.. haha.. and he drive me back.. haha.. it is some kind of excited i can say that.. but i am sure it is just for now.. haha.. i will get tired soon like the others.. but at the meanwhile i will just going to let myself enjoy this momment.. haha..

happy now!! :-D

wahahaha... i have a car.. haha.. a second-handed kancil.. haha.. even though it is a cheap and second-handed but i don't mind.. haha.. as long as it can move and it is nice.. haha.. it is really in a good condition.. haha.. want to have a look of my car? haha..






not bad d ba.. ^^ haha.. i love it.. haha.. it is really nice.. haha.. i love it.. all i have to do now is drive as carefull i can.. haha.. i can't wait my dad let me drive alone.. haha.. i think i can pass soon.. haha.. i really can't wait till that day.. wahahaa.. i am so deadfull want to go out.. haha. with friends.. haha.. beside, i can't wait my sister coming back cause we are going to decorate this car.!! haha.. dad had done his part.. haha.. so we had to do our part.. haha.. yeah!! i am sooo happy.. haha..

Loneliness and boring

these few days is completly lonely and boring.. beside doing house chores, helping dad, reading, watch tv and online, i did nothing.. nobody to talk to and chat to.. since everyone is busy (not the first time) haha.. and obviously that my sister is going to sit for exam and need to study.. our chating time had shorten a lot.. urgh.. i hate it.. i am so boring.. boring enough to drown me anyway.. but who cares.. nobody even care about how my day is going.. ( i am talking about my parents) haha.. whenever i talk about my day.. they show lack intersted and started to "teach" me about many many thing... it is really frustrated.. urgh.. like i can't have normal mum and daughter conversation or dad and daughter conversation.. it is wrong.. and all i had to is keep all in my heart..

these few days is like some emptiness in my heart.. urgh.. i think i need an urgent hang out with friends before i go mad or insane.. haha.. i am serious.. haha.. since my parents are still looking for a car for me or rather is say us.. my sister and i to practice our driving.. then i can go out whenever i can.. haha.. i can't wait it.. but it seems like my parents din want to buy it so quickly until they are really sastisfiate.. haix.. whatever that is.. that is their money and is their decision to make.. not mine.. so.. all i have to do is keep my mouth shut and enjoy whatever they give me.. haha.. like a stone..

seriouly.. i don't think my driving is that bad though.. better than my sister.. but i wonder why mum is soooo... urgh.. dad is so relieve when i was the one who driving while mum is like an insane people behind and kept on complaining.. urgh.. no wonder sister don't like to drive her.. she is really crazy (in some matter) haha.. maybe she should give me more credit like my dad.. i am going to be fine.. haha.. at least better than my sister.. i won't let us crash if i can.. haha.. nobody wanted accident.. haha.. so... why don't she just relax and enjoy the ride.. haha.. but that is not going to happen.. hahah.. i knew that.. haha...









whenever someone getting boring and lonely and empty.. weird life style started to craw in.. urgh.. weird lifestyle and dreams.. it is sooo.. frustrated.. i started to eat chocolate andice-cream.. jezz.. i am going to become a pig.. fat pig.. i really need to run.. haha.. as far as i can.. i just wish that the school started as fast as they can.. and of course my matriculation.. i really hope i can get it..haha..

stressful

Stress. I hadn't really get stressfull since the end of the SPM exam and the day me and some other human were working out on something. For the last few months, my time are wasted like the paper in this world, not really wasted but it is kinda wasting of time. It just during that time i wasn't have anything to worry about. Even my SPM result is coming out doesn't bother me at all like i was wonder how can i manage to do it. Somehow, i am now scare. Scare will be a nice and perfecr word to say rather than nervous. I am scare about the JPA interview. I was totally not in confidence at all but my mum seem to be perfectly confident with me!! My god!! not again. I really hope she wasn't put any faith in me!! not this time. urgh!! it is really frustrated to think that i am going to let her down AGAIN... i can't imagine that. she was keep on and on telling me this and that with hope, that's the problem. hope. the last thing i wanted from her. i am really afraid that i wil hurt her agian and she should know that the chances are as thin as the tiny rain. oh god.. please bless me...

not only the interview thing had make me stressfull. The scholarship thing and the matrix thing. They did put their "help" to make me stressfull. I was really worry and tired to do this things. It is like doing the thing that would give me good opportunty to improvce myself and yet the chances are so slim. I wish the chances will be fatter than i am. but i can't help it. I am not good enough. I always does. Like my mother said. I always not good enough. This future thing is getting my nerve on. haix.. but what can i do anyway ecspect grunting here and there. I had to solve it my own. that's the matter.

and somehow, the luck is not my side. i fall sick at this moment. haix.. I don't really know what to say. I am sick and my voice is way too "nice" to talk. urgh.. i hate it..

stress.. stress and stress.. it never end and never less....

nice and lovely

these few days is kinda happy and wonderfull day among most of the day in these few months.. i am kinda happy for the first time.. haha... it seems like very serious that i am a sad person...haha... don't get misunderstood... i am a "happy" person if you said so.. haha.. i can be one if you like.. haha.. it just that many thing happen among these few months and it turn me down.. make me sadder... haixx.. whatever it is.. it doesn't matter with that..


sister and her friend in tao

sister friend came to stay with us for few days and it turn out to a pleasant weekand i had.. haha.. espect i had to gain a few weight in order to accompany her to eat around our house.. haha.. first we when to tao to have lunch... it is really disastrous if you said so.. haha.. let me tell you why... somehow.. we kinda boring with the food and that's why we keep order our favourite food.. haha.. and it turn out that all of us getting very very full and we can't even had our dinner.. it is really missarable.. haha.. yet.. they had their supper... i wonder how can they had it... i can't barely ate anyting for the whole day.. haha.. maybe i should consider of making my stomach bigger.. kakazz..

after that, we went to Pacific.. haha.. to be honest, it is really tired.. haha.. we had to show her around in Pacific.. besides that, sister is looking for her new handphones.. haha.. and mine too.. but i haven't found anything i like.. so did mum.. haha.. so i just hope that i can found my handphone soon.. haha.. and we bought some things.. haha.. kinda fun.. and tired, of course.. haha...



and then, Jusco of course.. how can we missed that new shopping mall? haha.. and that's the place i seen my friends.. they worked there of course.. haha.. and she bought me a rubix.. haha.. i bought myself a new purse.. and sister? she did buy lots of things like the shopping mall's things is free of charge.. books... bags.. and present for her friends.. haha.. i just wonder how is she manage to pay for it.. haha.. but it is not under my consideration.. she is big enough to manage herself.. haha.. it is useless for me to worry about her finace problem while i myself having some of it.. haha... ^^

one of the best things when she came is she had taught me how to play rubix.. haha.. and i learnt it fast enough to beat her.. wakakaz... and my sister too.. haha.. i learnt faster than my sister... yeah.. haha.. so fun.. and i start getting addicted with that.. haha.. i keep on play and play.. in car and whatever place i manage to.. hehe.. not bad... haha.. and then she "bought" me the twilight series... new moon and eclipse the one i want to buy when i had enough money.. haha.. thank for that ya.. ^^







the next day we hangging out together and showed her our wet market.. haha.. and then we had a gathering with my granparents and relative.. it is really weird for her to follow.. but there is no other alternative for that and she had to follow.. haha... my granma.. had become older than she used to..haix.. people getting old when times fly.. that's all for the wonderful and nice weekend... haha.. it is short and not having detail because it is really obvious that i am seriously tired, and lazy... haha.. lazy is one of my recently excuses..haha.. weirdo.. ^^

big day

SPM always the big day for all of 18 year old student in Malaysia.. no matter how happy or how sad there are.. 12/3/2009 is the turning point of the next journey of our life.. and to be honest... i am not really in a good mood to write this blog... everyone is happy for me... some of them is completely dissapointed with me... so i am totally in the half way of dissapointment and frustration... i am really not happy with my result... after what i had been through.. after what i prepared.. so hard and never give up to improve my English... it is really hopeless.. haix.. i am really dissapointed with myself... haix.. so please forgive me for not giving any details... i try... later.. after a few days.. i try..
good luck you guy..
for those who get good result... conglatuation...
for those who not happy... don't be too sad...

i passed!!! i passed!!!!!

haha... i finally passed my car test... haha... happy and tired of cause...
before the day of the car test.. it is really a misarable day for me...
maybe is i get cold at the day before when i practice the car.. i was totally dying and din't really feel well enough...
what getting worst is when the last time of the practice... i realised that i wasn't that good like i thought... cause of the "lovely" uncle always ask me to do this and that.. till myself don't know what to do when i drive alone...



after i asked... i drive my own... and it is really sucks.. i forget many things and got scold... haix... that day is almost the worst day ever among the car lessons... dissappointment comes as fast as the confidence i got the day before..
i was soo sad and down after that... i started to scare... scare about the test.. i wasn't not ready and i found out that my stomach are full of butterflies... my god... everything turn to the worst... i can't eat.. i don't want to talk and started to feel like fever... my godness... either is because of the cold or the nervous... whatever it is... i still have to get rid of it before i took the test...


car test day is totally a disastrous.. i din't even slept well that night... i woke up 4 times... my godness... i was afraid to miss the time... haix... then i wasn't in mood to eat or whatever... it is nearly like daydreaming when i woke up that morning... i was nearly a ghost to be acurate.. haha... then the terible day started... i was the 3rd section... and i have to wait... WAIT.!!! the horible things to do... wait till almost 2.30pm or later.. it is really a torture... my godness.. i think i was going to kill someone there or commit a crime.. lucky to them cause the moment i want to... they called my name... haha... they are really lucky cause there is going to be a tornado coming if they still don't called my name.. haha.. and then.. i passed!!! haha... it wasn't that happy liike i thought i will be.. cause i was totally tired and exhausted... i wasn't have any energy to be happy.. beside there is nobody there to share with me.. they went back earlier than i am.. haix... left me alone... it is really a tired and lonely day... haix..
but what i am happy is i finaly passed... and i wasn't going to test again.. neither motorcar or car test.. haha... i am free!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss my friends

yesterday is the day i went to Jusco to buy something...
and i met a lots of friends there...
my godness...
they change...
people change in different aspects...
there seems like so different...
to be honest..
i nearly can't know them...

it is so weird seeing them working there instead of meeting in school like we used to be..
5 years met in school..
and now..
world is changing...
people changing..
time is flying...
they all pass without mercy...
and all we used to do is chase the time...
to catch up it so that we don't leave behind among the others..
we try our best to run to fly to chase the time...
and somehow...
we miss a lots of things beside us...
many..
friendship, family...
love and cares...
the honesty...
the loyalty...
the moral..
it is not easy to complete all these...

but i cares about my friends and my family..
i miss them...
i cares about them..
but sometime they are way to far for me to care them..
i really miss them...
i miss their laughter and their sadness that we had been through together...
i miss our memories...
no matter how good and how sweet it is...
it is still fresh in my memories...
without them i feel so lonely and empty...

i really miss them..

but sometime...

i wonder did they really remember me...

do they think the same way i do...

or they just go on and on as they have to.?

i wonder...
i really miss you all...

may all of us be happy and all our dreams will come true...

take care my friends... ^^